Bathing is really a wonderous thing. Through this one action, you will reflect back on so much that you have done and only then do you realise much more things about those things you have done. I love saying this one line, " If that guy did "so and so " , I would "so and so" " and ultimately, it never happens. Well, today this situation came about where I should have acted and as expected I didn't.
Its really disgusting to recall the incident only to realise the thousand and one things you could have done to handle it. Truth of the matter is, I just need that push to do what I want to do. I'm always hoping for a cue, for someone to give me a hint to act, when in reality, there isn't one. Guess I should give the story...
Went to a friend's brother's birthday and being older, he has friends who were drinkers. One of them decided to be friendly and approach my group, the younger ones, and try to talk to us. Few sentences later he was asking us to drink, directing the first one to me. Naturally, I turned him down and after like 7 refusals, you would expect him to stop and move on. But nope, he decided to go for my "girlfriends". Immediately, I was like "if he force them drink, i will take and drink and ask him leave"... but I didn't. I don't know why, but i was hoping for a signal from any of them, like a eye signal or something, to ask me for help. In the end, my friend took it and well the rest is history.
I don't get what could have gone thru my mind that expected a signal from my friends but all I could do about it was rant about how i COULD HAVE... I guess it was the guilt of being unable to do something that got to me.. I guess thats why i always rant alot. Its because I am not able to carry out something.
As much as i know i wont be able to carry it out, I still have to say it.. Act louis.. act... dun wait for a hint or signal. Don't analyse the situation till its too late.
Yep thats all.. Sorry to all my girl friends.. i'll try to improve on myself :D
