This year sure is gonna be a tough one.. and i barely started at all =.=

haiz.. just got news that my chinese lower basic is on every Monday from 3 - 6... 3hrs of pure chinese... the horror... but thats not the problem... the thing is.. Friday i got maths remidial.. and Dance is like.. every monday and friday? how on earth can i join SYF now? .. haiz.. big problem ahead... add on... i got to try out for talent time , practice tennis when i get my racket AND... train abit for muay thai and the "jiling lift" .. lolx so yeah... pretty tough.. and i haven included studies .. lol

anyway today was alright.. i completed the book i am reading at last... haha keep imagining myself with pure gold aura... omg.. it would be so cool...Bio was soso.. almost sleep... haha... SS was...terror.. i was practically getting myself angry cus i wanted lesson to end fast... but haha... worst ... maths was next and well i didnt bother.. Mr Ho sux... i hate him alot .. wish he can be absent once or so... cant wait for sat where tutor comes to teach me... then at least i can understand HoHo's lesson...for once =.=...dunno whyye but my tutor makes the work seem easy .. while mr ho makes maths seem... irritating.. haha... Chinese was JOY... whyye? no chinese =.= duh... go library read bk... Chem was skipped and bio was 1/4 cut cus got medical check up.. ZOMG i got raped... haha my back curve nid tuo for the nurse... poor me =(... haha

bio was cool cus teacher showed us a vid of the disection of cow eyes... wowneSs :D... k thats abt it...

O ya... if any1 know how play tennis or know people who can teach.. please tell me :D... and... haha... any dancers please teach me dance steps cus i doubt i can come :(

Heh .. ps nv post for like few days... been visiting relatives' house.. and well.. ok lo... Hong Bao this year was a record i guess... beat the others by at least $50 :D..

hmm.. Yesterday gamble lost abt 30... today lost abt 10.. haha... bo bian.. i know i SURE lose.. i weird de.. gamble with money.. sure lose.. gamble but no money.. sure win ...haha god dun wan me gamble.. but bo bian i like :D this sat going gamble again... woots..

Btw.. Accomplishment.. every year i lose i show black face or emo.. this year.. lose.. SWA.. dun care :D still happy..

But... dunno whyye today going home so sad...Suddenly .. haha i remembered stuff..This is a possible last year with my other friends...i dun wan leave damai with regret ... i really trying to solve any problems.. fix stuff.. but now.. the most important 1 is left un-solved..

BUT..I DUN CARE.. i will do watever it takes to solve it..i dun care if i will pai seh.. i will do wad must be done.. i just home the teachers dun spoil my chance.. haiz...

erm.. anyway.. any1 know how play tennis or knows people who willing teach tennis.. i am a VERY serious learner.... i really wanna learn tennis with all my heart... so.. let me know can? if need pay for tennis coaching.. i dun mind... name ur price :D.... thx..

btw.. i will damn sad if i cannot YOG

Slight Update

A rather suxish day today haha..

I seriously hate Mr.Ho now... If i can i will just tell him that i dun give a damn abt Maths all because of him...i lost interest in maths cus he is uber boring , uber hateable... today he made me hate him even more...he is giving us remedial every Monday , Tuesday and friday... k la .. no nid go SYF le.. no time go dance le =.=.. zz and this part no logic but i pissed so i still say... whyye cant he tell us for those who failed the test must have remidial... then at least i would have studied .. zzz....

after that got history then go reccess :D.... then go hall watch CNY performance... Baoshi , Hweechieh , Jenny , Yanqi , Claris(correct spelling) and Amanda sing so nice .. i wish i joined the thing.. i really wan sing 1 sia... sad... but o well.. i didnt know got Haha

come back not so bad le... finally me and brandon patch back ... but i dunno the reason he patch good anot.. haha...but nvm i still happy...

Update :

eh.. i really wanna try this tennis Youth olymipics thing.. teacher say just go competition kick ass can le... but lol i nv play before.. any1 here plays tennis? can teach me XD lol i so random can?

btw i am uber bored ... so.. LALALALALALALLAL no comments watsoeva...

Erm.. i forgot wad happened in school.. cus.. appearently Brandon got me pondering on smth...

came back from school i played Getamped and ... well i saw a new character realeased and msg him..haha intented to solve problems with him.. i mean.. i possibly lost one friend already.. i seriously dun wish to lose another...

so appearently our msg battle began.. and .. well .. now stop le.. i starting to wonder... was it really all his fault.. i dunno.. i really wanna just go ahead and say...BRANDON ITS ALL MY FAULT ... but .. i cant .. cus i know it isnt .. and i cant just go and admit something i know i am not fully guilty of...i am mad.. i am angry.. but right now our friendship is definatly more stronger...on the bright side.. at least he communicated.. but now i think things got worst...

things would be simpler if he can just admit he was partly in the wrong.. is it so hard... i already went ahead and said i was too sensitive ..and took his insults too seriously... but hey... comeon... u really did went ahead and say

" louis u very fucker lehz "

come on la... even if i wan say all my fault i cant right...u know me so long le..u still dunno i am super sensitive mehz...i am not asking for pity ... neither am i posting this to beg for forgiveness ( mainly cus u wont read this post and becaused i am not begging...) both of us are wrong .. so stop pushing all the blame to me... u say u understand human mentality ... well then u dun know me...if u think i am just like any other arse like guys who would make up stupid excuses to get out of serious situation then its the same as if u nv knew me...i rather u call me a sissy or a gay..at least u will know my mentality is different from THOSE regular guys whose pride is more important..

YES once again i say .. PRIDE.. u wrote in ur msg..

"rofl what a joke . u keep emphasizing about my pride . take a min to read this : " i did no wrong "

read this and see for yourself... there... this is the pride u rather save..then admit that at least 1 tiny % of u is guilty and at fault...

Pride is stupid.. who cares.. for Zazz , i threw it away .. but to me .. she is more important ( dun think wrong ) am i not important to u .. not even 1 tiny bit? i went to tell her apologise straight to her face....its just msging Brandon.. just you and me..theres no bloody tracker or something..will u die from it?

I wan to forget this problem occured.. thats whyye i msg u... not to make a draw of this stupid game ... cus i know.. u think u are the winner and i am the one at fault ( the loser ) ... i nv accepted the fact i was the 1 in the wrong... partially.. maybe... fully.. no... if u rather save ur bloody pride.. so be it... i had enough of this... i dun wanna plead or debate anymore...and one more thing... i know i lie alot and i annoy u with it ... Yes.. i definatly do know that.. whyye else did this cause the problem with me and Zazz in the 1st place ?But honestly.. towards u.. i had to... and u already msg u whyye.... my sensitivity affects this friendship as well... so yeah... i know i am at fault too.. i know my mistake towards the... problem i guess... but hey.. do u know ur problem? do u not have mirrors? I know ur attitude .. and i know ur personailty... but.. do u know mine? if u did.. whyye dun u know abt my sensitivity? 1 way or another.. its either u didnt know me enough through this 2 years or u didnt bother to care... or.. u ignored my sensitivity to just say wad u wan .. thats all...

I know u wont read this post eva.. but if u do .. then.. dun take it the wrong way...

Before beginning..just wanna say.. I WANNA JOIN YOUTH OLYMPIC GAMES.. WHYYE CANT THEY TELL US THERE WAS A SELECTION DAY? I WOULD HAVE BLOODY HELL TRAINED FOR TENNIS OR HANDBALL ! GOSH SUPER PISSED =(..

haha done.. erm.. today was uber boring as usual..Emaths annoyed me so much cus teacher was... well i just dun like him.. MT was good cus as always i go library to study / slack ... English.. wuuus free period cher no come.. did her Claz work =.=... but nvm 15 mins only... SS.. zomg test.. die.. but .. ok la.. i just not sure i link correct..fianlly physics.. who cares =D

k after school sadly got Remidial.. did his work for that 1 hr then we can go home =D

yay... come home le i rest awhile then .. around 6 or so i began searching stuff on youth olymipic.. but i cant find anything abt participation ...i dun wan do crapo presenting.. i wan be IN the sport =.=.. haiz.. 1 wish down the drain.. how olymipics wont be the next 1 down the drain...

I know its annoying if i complain at the start of the post.. but..GOSH GOSH GOSH i hate the fact that i am so bloody weak =(.. Leonard and Johnnathan has like little trouble lifting the their partners... Alvin and Bill also better than me ... Jesus man... Note to all youngsters..train young.. dun like me play with a lame skipping rope to .. i dunno have faster eyesight speed or ... something else like speed.. ( i play a zzz double dutch )

anyway today was.. ok... Hated Maths as always ...and i did something stupid... i forgot that i pass up my maths hw le .. so i rush and do AGAIN... end up when i pass up "collector" come and tell me i pass up 2 for wad.. so pisssed.. i threw away the 1 .. with MORE complete questions =.=.. how dumb..Physics lesson later on helped..cher give us 30 sec to communicate with buddy.. i SHOUTED .. so pissed... my partner so funny.. shock until like that =D

after that stayed in claz till 3:30 to help with claz deco.. me and nuri only.. so fun sia =D... enjoyed..

finish le go dance for the WORST time eva... no offense but i hate my part... i like being out on the stage early and get fun exciting parts to play.. but i come out half way through holding JiLIng... Gosh i always fail to catch her ... its annoying.. dun get me wrong hor.. i like dancing with her... Its fun .. but maybe it would be better if she took a stronger guy ..( any1 else but me ) while i get some1 less heavy.. Not that she is heavy .. she is actually light.. but i have to toss her up , roll her over my shoulder then push her off to catch her at her stomach area... try that =.=..

sometimes I feel that leonard and Johnathan can just BE my seniors HAHA... so uber useless... i shouted for attention at the wrong time , tio scolded.. XD...cus so noisy i cannot hear myself count for Jiling to Jump up...

Hmm ya thats abt it sorry for the complains...

O god i got nth to post... o crapooooo.... erm... i only know i am uber bored...trying to study but cant.. hmm any1 willing save my butt here? XD... as in study mate or MATES =D... like.. once a week? XD

made plans with neighbour and Dawn ( once a mth go out library ) lolx.. so random hor? haha... attention-span ... TEENY WEENY... =D..

Went Muay thai today... not as tiring .. maybe i getting used... He came today ..but erm... nvm la...at least he said something to me..." u want the glove ? " lolx... as if i am a stranger =D.. kwel yeah? yaya lalalla byeee nth to do

Forgot Post yesterday..=D .. anyway nvm... the main 1 was a joke in history claz...cher say got a burtal act of terroristiem where a guy was beheaded with a saw on TV... 1 word.. gross...

after school i told Nuri the joke.. 1st .. imagine.. how it feels to have ur head sawed off slowly while u are still alive... now hear this... the terrorist is so dumb see? he sawing the guy head but cannot make a clean cut... The victim was scream " o god kill me now kill me now ! " .. the terrorist was like.. " Sorry sorry i cant make a clean cut.." half way through , caught in the bone... the guys head is practically left half loose.. " OMG KILL ME PLAESE! " The terrorist was like " CANT ITS STUCK!! "... then he pulled the saw out , check it for awhile then go sharpen it... guess wad... the Victim was practically SCREAMING HIS HEAD OFF .. haha.. LOLX...

anyway today was ok...normal .. except that i slept through chem lesson... learnt nth =D... and yes... thats all =D... haha... lala..

I already tried my best to apologise.. can u not ignore me any longer?

It felt much worst then performing .... the feeling of butterflies filling ur stomach ... just scared me.. It was like.. waiting backstage .. before performing infront of thousands of people with a dance i'm unsure of.. yes that bad... wad is it u ask? apologising... lolx no i am NOT demanding pity or watever.. just saying only..i know i sounds Gay and stupid but seriously.. i realised it is just thaat difficult... but haha... obviously She means more to me ( friend ) .. hmm .. didnt really say fully wad i wan to say.. last part i back out ... XD

The graduation thingy let me forget abt it awhile... when i saw the people so happy when they reacieve their 7 - 5 distinction... but heh.. i wont be able to get it.. at mst 1 only.. =D... erm... then... dance was fun... turns out 4 boys including me will carry girls as part of the dance again.. haiz.. i wish i can do wad the others are doing... its seems so fun dancing as a mountain.. seriously =D... but nvm.. carrying is cool... Jiling my partner again ...reminds me of how i partner with Yutong.. only .. more touchy this time... and more strenght needed...

No leonard =D.. day improved SO MUCH... lol... At least i could talk to Johnathan abit rather than be bored.. ok done.. i shall go.. erm... ????

I always say that i feel that.. my frens are slowly deserting me..but now.. i realised.. i am only doing this to myself...i keep telling myself how unlucky i am to know people who slowly dislike me and stuff ... but i shud tell myself how lucky i am to still have those who care for me despite my actions...

Now i see whyye i MUST sit with Nuri.. She is the only 1 who managed to "chill" after 1 full year of me... when i get close to some1 ... i tend to get comfortable with him or her.. and talk like a machine gun.. which frankly.. i know can be annoying.. i tend to do stuff i know shud not be done cus i know.. they will still love me ( as in fren ) ... but.. haha .. i never seem to actually see this.. until i realised i pushed this luck too far...

Even Dawn .. she cant withstand me ... during Pri 4.. being in the same claz , we drifted apart cus of my attitude..only when seperated can we maintain our 12 years of frenship ...hahax..

But kinda regretful now... slowly my frens will see me as an annoyance .. but i wont be angry if i ever lose them... my attitude is pretty much Imbued( not sure if this is the right word ) in me.. so haha i doubt i can change them.. but... i will feel regretful .. i hope i dun lose the most imporant oneS of all...

O god... Today is like the WORST day EVER !

Reached school go claz since is Friday... Saw Zazz and Letong.. err.. Zazz asked me stuff abt her Choir Performance thing.. and...appearently she found out i didnt go =(... bad part isnt the fact she found out but rather i lied to her in the 1st place =(.. sorry Zazz..

Next... change seats ... i moved to the other end ... in short.. i am all the way left.. nuri is all the way right.. i dun mind sitting with My current partner.. but .. Nuri makes the time move faster ...

last .. DANCE... gosh..starting we no energy.. all we shouted was DANCE CLUB OII and.. Join dance... Join dance ... haiz... later part got energy ... we did a few " acts ".. i danced with Yutong.. which was fun...then zzz the bad part come.. Jenniffer and Shihui dance battle... then Next came in Yutong and Cassandra... then i came in .. and embrassed myself =.=... i did some lame Pumping thing.. which is stupid.. AMANDA IS UR FAULT!!! OMG!!! I BLAME U!! haha =D..

thats all.. i have 1 thing to say...( no i didnt copy paste)
Sorry Zazz
sorry Zazz
Sorry Zazz
sorry zazz
sorry
zazz
Sorry Zazz
sorry Zazz
Sory Zazz
Sorry Zazz
Sorry Zazz

A simple Phrase for today.. i dun have time to post the day although it was awesome since got 2hr free period since bio teacher nv come MUFAFAA

"Nv say " later it fly away while covering *ahem* "

Cus Nuri today swinging her wallet almost hit *ahem* then i was like Later it fly away then u know... then my hand hit my thigh ... something fly away... so funny... i think is butterfly which btw i am scared off so... i almost screamed HAHAH

Hehe lately uber hyper =D nice nice =D

anyway today was ok too =D .. had 2 hrs of Amaths... time passed so fast when having fun =D.. hehe thats whyye i like sitting with Nuri.. time seems to fly =D... after that we had PE..YAY i grew 1cm =D.. actually is 0.4cm .. but haha i grow... 2 years 1 cm.. so is 18 more years =D to 180 =D... MFAFAFA... did 50m run... lolx i so slow.. 7.27 seconds =.=...lolx..

Recess hehe ate food then go clz..nowadays eat so much ..tst tst =(..

After that had chemistry and watever it .. English was fun... did some stroyline drawing thing... our story is like an Assasin come to kill a small girl... going kill le the sin saw the small girl face so poor thing...then she struggle whether kill or not..then when the sin turn away.. the girl stab the sin with a dagger haha.. =D...turns out she sin also =D...

Ok watever... today wanted to go dance de.. but then.. dunno teacher will allow cus i might take up space.. so end up i dun go =D..

lalal k abit bored now but i will try not to =D.. see ya =D

Happy school Day , Sad Home day =(

K anyway went school like always ... lets skip the boring assembly parts..had History 1st.. YAY got ms hassan =D joy =D i luv her teaching.. sad she got some leave thingy cus she pregnent.. take over .... MR RAJ!! omg scared to the XXXXTEEEMMEEE LOLX... after history had Amaths .. it was super fun.. teacher made us write our names on a paper which we taped on our backs... the whole claz went aroundwriting on people a personaility they felt that person was =D... all i could write was..Cheerful and Caring =.= omg... some1 write i LOSTDOG... no idea who.. but get 1 thing stright.. is LOST CAT!! ... moi like meows... but pet dogs =D

after that go MT .. i tot i shud stay in claz cus i now taking CLB... lol i go my SHUD BE claz and just.. pretended i care =D....

RECCESS! uber crowded =.= .. but it was ok... went with Zazz Letong Veron =D.. hehe.. nuri and Sadhana joined later... bad vibe then...shall not say =D

Bio .. heck it haha...got ms mak which is good.. PHYSICS! funny sia... got a new cher Mr wong.. then he came in intro bla bla then abt start le say.. Ehh.. u r Louis right?? then.. wads ur name ar * points to partner* 3 years le still sitting together.. SO HILARIOUS can? no la..not the part abt us sitting with each other for 3 years although it is true... the part where he remembered my name and not Nuri's =D... then learn wave.. lol i did some wave thingy teacher saw ask me show... i was like.... looking and nuri pretent i blur =D HAHAHAH

k thats my school day.. WAIT.. there is more =D mufafafafa... i so kuai..go Library do Hw while waiting for dance =D.. dance zzz abit pissed at ending.. Boys dunnid compete...confirm chosen 1...=.=... i dun like.. i wan to DESERVE the spot ... not have it cus of my gender =.=.. plus the MAIN roll sure give to leonard la... every1 sure vote for him=.=.. i wan the spot to be earned fair and square.. for all u know jrs might beat him.. though its hard considering Leonard's ability... BUT my jrs are good too MUFAFAFAFA... lol me? i sure cannot win =.=... always look down...so nervous dunno for wad.. scared sia when music starts lol then i kicked johnathan's butt while dancing.. SORRY =D..

home.. 1st thing i heard... Louis if Nikki(dog) urine on floor again out she goes =.=.. haiz... nervous.. lately nikki siao de... urine shit on floor.. dunno wad happen =.=. haizz.. shall go bathe do hw watever =D

ZOMG AMAZING DREAM!! =D... ya i know .. i wake up immediatly post my dream.. so lame hor? but i like =d yay me

Starring : LIANA SUE .. my older sister AND MEEEEEE

Well.. my sister was an AMAZING wizard.. the scene jump from 1 to another showing my sister using various spells.. ( i forgot the spell name omg...CRAPP!! ) then wow.. it was so cool la.. cannot explain the coolness with words =D..

then hor suddenly my sister tio backstab by dunno which arse hole...but haha she nv die .. no worreies =D... then hor... the scene change to the western type like cowboy... then the evil guy go into hospital dunno visit hu .. LOLX... then i wan take revenege... and i go in hor... i was like... omg.. spell?? waad spell?? LOLX... run back out ask sister... she told me 1.. and yes.. during my dream i remembered. ..

walked back in.. and blast that arse hole with some purple beam that took SOOOO LONG tro charge and i was at 1st wondering if i said it correctly haha.. blast and blast so fun =D... then he close to me le... no time charge... then i dunno how i make up a name.. lavitos someting something... then i lavitate a chair and smack him non stop... just when i going deliver a final blow.. i wake up =.=.. DAMN IT!!.. wake up i go back sleep.. wake up again i forgot all the spell =.= crapiiee

Anyway now neck cramp/sprain... stupid lambo... do so hard like i seriously his enemy... bo bian...he like that lo =D....childish and irritating.. yes i know... i am childish too.. typing weird dreams.. but o well.. at least i admit it =D...watever no link

K... today is another.."i tried to do my hw" day.. haha...

At 10 , my tutor came...did some of my ...dunno how do maths questions yay me... now all that is left is the entire Amaths holi hw =.=... doubt can do...maple till 5.... which is stupid cus i am still in holi mood and i shud be doing amaths but o well..around 6 i left for muay thai..

Muaythai ... gosh.. i cannot train properly..appearently Lambo-san DID turn up... and just when i thought he would be a willing party to apologise or something... he pretended like i am not there and ignored me ...and yes.. for the entire lesson... during the part where we were FORCED to "go against" each other.. he also nv say anything.. just laugh at the cher or watever.. k .. i didnt talk to him either... i didnt want to look like a fool =.=... grabbing time =D.. dunno la..he wan fight then fight lo =.=... grab me so hard like i no skin like that =.=... zz.. i let him grab willfully somemore... he better not think i am weaker =.=...HAHAHAH i hope i pass to him my fever then i happy =D...

thinking hor.. i realised i was stupid from the start to believe THESE kind of person .. is the KIND of person who i shud hang out with =.=...even after knowing this i dunno whyye i wan patch asap=.=.. but nvm... 1 more week... if he really dun wan admit his mistake ... suan le..=D... i bet he does not even know he did anything wrong... he is just thinking how right he is and how wrong i am ...yay him =D...

Ps: i dun desperately need him as a fren... if he is going to continue to act this way... i dun mind losing this 1 fren...

ps again : also doesnt mean i dun wan him as a fren or he is THAT bad... but if he cannot reason things out with me ... bo bian... he not giving me chance also ....

Sick ... lol.. 1st day of school sick le... dunno wad happen also... wake up feel abit sore throat .. now go a slight fever Lolx...

School time...

Heng sia i get to sit with Nuri... i hope teacher does not change our place though...our teacher also not bad.. say that at times , can eat sweet in claz , listen to mp3 .. =D...after saying that she give us compo to do to judge our english standard... and i can tell u... i wrote crap LOLX

chem teacher still same =.=.. greatttt... then she give us hw... and lol i have no idea how to do =.=...

after school go see the CLB thing .. take form go dance room outside do banner .. lolx...major headache then... then ShiHui keep asking me go home.. haha.. thx for concern BTW... but i so stubborn dun go home... come home around 3... immediatly go sleep...no use .. .haha.. still feel uncomfortable after sleeping =.=...18 degree aircon also no use... ii can still sweat haha.. k.. lalal i do hw .. or something

On this LAST day of the holis.. i went out with ShiHui , jenniffer and Brenda =D

Met at Brenda at Bedok Inter at 12:30 ... waited then go mac at 1... ate .. jen came followed by ShiHui ... Did hw from to till 2:30 then go kararok =D

there , we sang and screamed lol... tomorrow school.. enjoy 1 last day =D.. hehe..so fun siol..

around 6:15 Brenda left.. at 7 we left too then like that lo =D

and let u all know something... my singing is very horrible until all hear can faint =D.. next time i will choose songs that need screaming rather then singing =D