I know i've been saying i'll post but.. XD its rather hard to constantly think of something les something pisses me off or something cool happened..

And i know it sux but i guess this is another semi-ranty post so feel free to ignore it :D

But first, an awesome thanks to Veron, Zazz and Letong for the sleepover and all that :D It was fun .. took pictures , chat , eat and of course :P sleep .. veron.. ur bed so suang :P I've learnt 3 things during this time

1) I cant power-nap .. XD i "Had'' to wake up in two hours and i failed cus i end up dosing off.. but thanks guys for letting me go back to sleep :D
2) Letong is SCARY when she is sleeping...suppose sleep for two hours only but end up cant.. :P Me and letong continue sleep .. then due to "issues" we decided to wake up and go eat :D ... so i tried to wake Letong and guess wad.. she suddenly grip my arm super hard i got 1 heck of a shock.. note to self.. when waking letong.. stand 1 metre away :D
3) I LOVE VERON'S MATTRESSSSS.. so comfy :P

XD fun fun :D Then next day hor had another outing with S.V .. also fun fun .. played squash and pool which was awesome.. aching legs now :P

Hmm..i know its kinda point form like .. but.. u know how it is.. when something negative is on ur mind.. u cant seem to focus on explaining the good stuff .. u really gotta say the bad stuff ...

I get pissed and frustrated easily....

The sucky thing is..despite it sounding like i am displease with myself , i am actually displease with the people who cause me to feel frustrated..before anyone assumes please chill.. its just a sudden thought and reflection bla bla..

Ok..see here.. since young i can never argue , i can never fight back ( with words ) nor can i rebutt any single thing.. even when its clear to me that i am in the right.. Why? Well.. the idea of "don't interupt when others are talking " always sticks to me... I cant seem to talk when others are talking as i would like to listen to them ... but of course.. morons wont bother to listen to me so i always end up "losing" Another crappy thing is that i stagger a lot.. i can never form full and proper sentences without staggering..i dunno why but it frustrates me that i will feel embarassed if i stagger during an argument .. why?
1) it shows that ur facts are unclear or u are unsure of the facts
2) You are nervous / afraid of ur opponent
And naturally i feel self-concious about it and eventually lose confidence in myself..but in all reality , i aint afraid of my opponents and i know i am not so stupid as to debate on a matter i would undoubtfully lose in :D

Ok now i'm sure ur wondering.. "oo...k.. louis.. so.. u cant argue .. wad has this got to do with u being easily frustrated .."

Well.. think of it this way, If i cant argue/debate , i will be unable to voice out what i think and/or prove my point to the other person.. cause i swear there are LOADS of irritatable idiots who are unreasonable and frustrating to talk to...

And it is cause of this that i keep all my opinions to myself and debate against myself in my own brain.. yes.. i'm pretty sure that alot of my friends have already established that i have alot going on in my brain.. one of those is that i have this two-side thingy where i debate with myself .. not casually.. but violently..which brings my personaility into the picture ( i imitate people and copy them bla bla ) i tend to imitate the person in the MOST annoying way he or she can be and debate against myself ... cept i give myself time to actually voice out... but.. because i barely voice out what i want to say , i always feel like i will lose in the debate and thus , even in MY OWN brain , i tend to let myself lose to my imitated person ..

Am i being too confusing in this matter ? I'm sure it doesn't concern you guys but.. yeah i just feel frustrated with myself...It just pisses me off how people can be so unreasonable,foolish and childish .. and before u go around saying "Louis, you can be childish/foolish/unreasonable sometimes too" .. then let me ask you.. in the serious of times .. what do I do? I know its like so stupid for me to praise myself but hey.. i'm stating a point..and in a way defending my reasoning ..

I try to cheer you up ( i not saying to any particular person.. this is wad i do ) , i try to ask what happened .. i ACTUALLY do my best to do something to make you happy.. I don't go around saying something that would indirectly hurt you...

Which brings me to this .. people who DON'T know that whatever they say or do during that moment has hurt you... yeah... i've really gotta tell these people to analyse the situation and choose your words or actions..no offense.. (I know this word "no Offense" doesnt work .. cause.. you will still feel insulted ) Its like.. comeon ..for example , I say A bully me , then u say B got bullied by A too , thinking it will make me feel better cause you think that its not my fault i got bullied , A is just strong..but no dude/dudette ... you will make me feel more frustrated at how sucha ass can exsist .. (this is clearly and example cause.. this example is so.. vague and stupid haha )

So yeah.. i kinda feel better already :D Thank you bloggy :D and thanks for reading this far :P I kinda forgot why i got frustrated at myself to begin with...No.. i'm lying .. i obviously do know.. but.. u know how it is...no matter how much you want to tell them/him/her off , you cant cause u know it would affect the friendship and all that jazz ... its a long chain of event that i will not elaborate on .. but namely, tell = accept/no accept = more argument = more problem = frustration = bye bye

Sure u can just walk up to him/her and tell him/her off but.. of course.. you're just being heartless now arn't you.. if i have to tell i would but obviously after much difficulty.. heck simply telling them their breath stinks ( just a joke ) is hard already .. think about having to say he/she is pissing you off cause of bla bla bla .. OUCH.. if you don't find it hard ur just being a bitch / asshole / crappo shit cause to me , it just shows that u care for yourself more then u care for others .. which is so sucky =.=

Before i end this post i just wanna say .. I love all my friends and like...it sucks when memories of them rush into my brain that cause me to continue this post.. i mean sure there are more good memories over bad ones but.. u know...lol i'm getting blur with wad i wanna say already.. 75% of my brain is saying SLEEEEPP.. 20% is still debating with myself over wad people will think when they read this post..and the last 5% is thinking of whether i should press the "Publish post" button :P ...

O well.. i did type quite a huge chunk.. why not :X i mean.. u reading to the end means u care for me dun cha :D so why not hahas.. anyway yeah good night and buhbye :D