She nagged at me abt not going school cus i late.. which fine... i admit i was wrong.. but then she went on about the REASONS to why ... and obviously.. we all know.. GAMES!! wuus.. and for some reason.. i feel pissed.. and no.. its not bcus i really was doing work last night and she didnt know.. but because she doesnt know how useless her words ar..its like..who on earth does she think she is talking to? I've been born into this world for like 18 years and yet she doesnt know who I am as a person? Heck.. why is it no one in my family knows me as a person.. my characteristics, my mentality...why? Am i that hard of a nut to crack.. cus honestly i dun think so..Its like.. if she knew how i thought abt things.. she shud know that her words are meaningless to me cus..I KNOW! like god.. the amount of pressure and stress that i put on myself every single day due to my procrastinating nature is like 10x more scarier than the amount she could invoke through those mere words of hers.. and its like.. cant u do smth else other than make that 10folds into 11?
And shes like.. "i see u everytime playing"...THATS WHO I AM!.. damn it.. i know i know.. LOUIS ITS AN EXCUSE.. honestly.. i dun care if it is... if its an excuse so be it.. i shall tell u my EXCUSE..heres the thing my wonderful reader... I HATE STUDYING.. i have mentioned in countless posts that i hate it.. HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE...and like.. it pisses me off whenever she says "He/she is not the study type".. whenever intellect is measured...i really dunno why she defends others and not me when it comes to this aspect..my intellect ( yes i sound braggish dun rub it in =.= ) does not guage my ability in doing work.. its just my brain that understands, reads and memorise things faster than most ppl ( i think la.. or maybe i understand well i dunno ) I talk abt my nursary fren whom is now in my tennis claz ( sudden ) .. i say he most likely NA/NT... she say .. he not the study type... My sister do horribly for math and all that.. she say she not the study type.. wtf? Thats not a reason...I'm also not the study type.. but why can I get into express... why can i solve math questions .. maybe its just cus i want to be praised.. but honestly.. it pisses me off.. its like.. the more i do well.. the more i am seen as some1 who is SUPPOSED to be hard working and do well...I DUN WANT THAT.. u are all setting retarded views/aims for this illusion u have of me.. THATS NOT ME!.. god =.=.. and there i am.. having to hear ur crap abt how i am not working hard all because u THINK i am some1 who shud/will...Why not.. Why not ar... u ask ur daughter to show better grades? She is the hardworking type... gosh=.=
Ok ! anyway .. done with that "little" rant... i kinda dunno wad to talk abt now...
Anyway i went out with zazz and veron today to watch transformers.. and .. meow~ i dun wanna go into specific stuff abt wad we did but simply put it... movie - chat - home :D But .. hmm the girls were kinda talking alot abt their stuff and.. although they told me to talk abt my stuff.. i kinda had nth... SORRY!!.. shall try and say some stuff here since.. yeah...
ok.. so.. i told u guys that i get jealous when i see other dudes with big arms.. well..i dun think i'm clear.. lol... its not the arms.. as in in the whole.. the proportion of it all LOL.. sounds weird but just wanna be clear that its not some weird arm fetish thing LOL cus like.. dunno le.. i find they so lucky got nice body i jealous :(.. i wan be model also cannot cus too skinny due to retarded genes :( yucks...
Hmm.. just now the hair thing...uhh..it kinda made me realise why i dye my hair alot... ok wait stop from here first.. my sister came in and now i'm pissed..
As a gamer and some1 who totally cant multi task.. i often cant feel the vibrations of a phone.. let alone focus on a conversation... and u know.. its like.. she LOVES coming in to ask me shit which i often try my best to entertain and just now .. she came in with that wtf attitude asking me why i didnt say it was me when she asked me abt the oatmeal scrub.. ok background check.. i've been using oatmeal to cleanse my face.. ANYWAY back to it.. its like... OBVIOUSLY she "asked" me.. when i was playing a game...haven she learnt by now that i cant focus on her words when i'm playing? Like get a clue .. i know.. its partly my fault for playing very often and having fucked up multi tasking skills.. but cant u adapt to my characteristics? I say Uh and yeahs to everything cus .. face it .. almost every thing u ASK ( not tell) is impt... does it make u look fat... is it nice... is it too big... are u slimmer.. srsly... retarded questions.. i say yes u dun believe.. i say no.. u angry.. so best... Uh .. yeah.. dun care just say ..so yeah.. hating the words " i ask u that day...".. cannot stand it cus often than not.. i never hear at all =.=...dun worry.. like mother like daughter.. :D... i really want to go up to them and say.. I TOLD U THAT DAY ... only to hear them say NEVER LEH.. and get a kick out of it ..
ok back to things..i dye my hair cus i hate my hairstyle.. its like..the one feature abt myself that i hate... I hate styling my hair and want it to look nice un-gelled.. so yeah...i dye it cus i cant have a good hair cut haha was kinda disappointed when i saw.. THE HAIR just now at GV .. cus it was styled ... damn :(...WHY MY HAIR LIKE SHIT LOL
Uhh.. wad else...Oh ya.. just now when i say .. if i read into things too much tell me.. i meant it.. cus .. i kinda have a habit of doing that .. oh oh and i dun wish to sound smart whenever i give my suggestions and opinions when "those" problems surfaces
Wad else....ARGH I DUNNO! I DUN WANNA THINK! YUCKS!..I WAN A PULL UP BAR BUT IT COST $30++ #*)@*#@*)@ ok BYE :D HAHAHAHHAHA I WAN A NEW FACEBOOK PROFILE PIC CUS MY HAIR LOOKS LIKE SHIT!! JEN SHIHUI BREN...WHERE IS OUR PHOTOSHOOT PICS!! NEW PROFILE PIC NEEDEEEEDDDDDDDD
Ignore this emo-ish quote that i thought of that summed up wad i was thinking abt the whole journey home..
I guess for everything.. but there are somethings that I simply cant bring myself to.
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