Aiyo lately cannot sleep..Always end up sleeping at like 4am or later and no i dun get on my bed at like 4am.. i get on at like.. 1am lol..

Dunno so weird..

Anyway..yesterday was watching anime till like 5 am then suddenly blackout and thru that.. it made me realise just how much i fear the dark.. yes i'm 18 but yet i fear darkness or rather.. wad my mind can conjure up and all that .. so appearently lights went out and i was like.. sitting on my chair and immediatly i jumped onto my bed and hid under my sheets.. and thing is i do know how to like do the fusebox stuff and on it.. just 1 switch after all but it was outside my room and even if it was in my room i doubt i would dare to move..haha i dunno why but i just stayed there.. cowering under my sheets and hoping some1 would notice and save me from my "misery" .. thankfully my maid woke up like 5mins later cus its like her.. waking up time but it made me wonder 2 things

1.. if like my maid didnt wake up..what would i do.. i had to turn in on cus the fridge and all that nid electricity and i guess.. i wont...i'm really that scared of the dark.. my mind always plays tricks on me and give me retarded images and thoughts.. oh yeah and a thing that almost made me scream was when my air-con and my room's the air freshener spray thing crack + spray at the same time..dunno how say .. but anyway it made a huge sound and it scared the shit out of me and i literally held my breath for like damn damn long lol..

anyway moving on.. 2.. i was lucky that i pulled down my bed before hand so i can rush to it.. but.. if i didnt.. wad would i do.. i realise that.. i would actually panic and maybe even scream..its really sissy and gay thinking abt this but haha i really am scared of being in the dark.. oh yeah another random thing.. every time my room is in darkness.. i have to be like.. full covered under my blanket.. i cant have any skin exposed .. it just freaks me out.. like.. yeah i dun wanna type it out cus being the dude that i am.. i fear that my fears will be read and all that shit.. MOVING ON!

Yeah i really am paranoid.. i dun dare to type so much of wad i wanna type cus of certain stuff but its funny thinking abt this cus..i am someone who does like insane amount of thinking to like manage random problems like car banging and like jumping off a building..whether it works i dunno but at least my mind is like.. prepared with ideas to overcome it at least.. anyway.. having think of these things.. i fear sucha "small" thing.. its big to me but.. "small" nonetheless.. haha.. ARGH NVM shall go bathe so late le..