Was watching an anime called Black Rock Shooter and i noticed something..

Ultimately, the best number of frens to have is just one..

Odd numbers are simply the worst..cause honestly, not every1 has the ability to handle groups..unknowingly and eventually without a doubt, one person will get left out..and sure we cant really blame the other 2 or 4 depending on how many .. cause its natural to have certain topics that he or she can talk to with just that other single person..i may be wrong in making these statements but its just my personally opinion and observation..

We'll tend to prefer a certain member of the group to others depending on a particular aspect..and if we have various groups of frens.. this also applies to that..but for now lets stick to just one group of 3 frens..

Haha its kinda obvious why i'm typing this post actually :P In the early stages..it was just two...easy and fun..just random talks and games..it was fun back then..really it was :D and then it turned into three.. things were still fun.. we just knew each other thru the introduction of that in-between nth much.. same old same old .. we were loved equally the same but prefered only slightly over the other depending on certain attributes..the three now didnt consist of an inbetween.. just 3.. then there was 2 and 2 ..a fight.. and the fighters shared that fren who was neutral.. and then 3 again with the same strength as before which was good.. then there was 2 and 2 again.. this time.. i was a fighter..i shared the neutral fren.. and finally.. now.. its 3 again.. but this time not with the same strength.. and i realise.. a strong preference has been made..we were not equal anymore..if there was a grade.. i was just a grade 2 while the other was grade 1..

It might be jealousy or watever but soon i realise that it was not the case.. rather it was fear.. being "grade 2" .. i was at the edge of a danger zone and at any moment cast into its depths..why i was downgraded? i didnt know.. did i change? Did you change..i really didnt know..i tried to change that.. i tried to include myself forcefully but maintain secrecy as to not seem too desperate..but it was no use..the difference in liking was too obvious but without a doubt.. they were unaware.. i didnt blame them.. it was to be expected.. if i had to judge..i'd know who are more superior compared to others considering attributes and towards which person and for this matter.. i was the inferior being.. i could not come close to that of the grade 1.. not because of him being an overall better person but rather the in-between's preference being more towards the attributes of him..

But it was still ok..i was still holding onto that lifeline or watever that prevented me from falling into that danger zone..still on the edge .. safe :D but of course.. i wouldent be posting this if i didnt fall now will i.. so yes .. i fell in today but i still cant tell them all this...to most.. the reasoning to why i fell in is a childish one.. which i agree is true.. but the reason to why this reason came about.. proved this preference between frens..

Just because you consider someone NOT a hi-bye fren
Doesn't mean you don't treat them like one~

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I love animes where the frens are so caring for one another in real life.. helping them do chores and laughing while its done...helping them fight off foes all that shit... why cant it happen here .. it would be awesome really and the thing that would be MOST MOST awesome.. is when they cry with each other..even as i guy.. i like this aspect.. i really do..but its k.. i'm not gonna expect much..