So apparently I was singing just now and my mom came in without knocking..

Want to buy sound proof room pl0x =.=.. i dun wan any1 hear me sing let alone get so close to my room and manage to hear a slight hint of it...I can safely say that the reason why I cant put a cover up or anything is cause i dun have privacy at all.. my room is so close to the kitchen and my room is the nearest to the living room which my family is always at. FURTHERMORE.. i can NEVER have the whole house to myself .. even if i do its for sucha short period of time and its definately not enuf..

So irritating ... and i bet ur thinking.. why cant let them hear.. they ur family wad...

My ideology is different .. my idea is that.. my family and frens are people i will know for a long time.. and having them witness any fails of mine will result in them remembering them and ultimately.. me remembering them as well.. heck even know i'm remember so much of my fails through myself.. i definately dun wan to look at their face and rmb my other fails...

Nt to mention, my family are those type of ppl that just talks abt it openly... in short.. no =.=..

Gosh so irritated right now.. and worst still she just says " Tmr no school ar still dun sleep " ... my voice like noise ar? ... thats the problem of reading into things too much.. i know she is just saying like.. GO SLEEP LA ITS LATE.. but for me.. its more of.. stop making noise rather than that of MUSIC.. see the diff? so now all i can think of is that my voice is noise an like.. shitty as crap that isnt music at all even though I ALREADY KNOW.. she didnt mean it..

Which brings up the whole why i think so far =.=... BLEH... just recently my sister said she sees things further than me.. cus i saw this wedding pic of my cousin and her to-be-husband... they stand in train at playground then tilt to girl side.. so i said "see wads wrong with this pic? saying girl fat" ... then she said.. "u think too much.." then i say.. its a joke haha.. she then said "tilt to her side meaning she more impt" then bla bla i think further than u... hoho.. 1stly.. thats is like.. femenism and like favourism or watever.. she ur cousin.. she girl.. so more impt.. bull crap.. 2ndly.. HOW I WISH.. she can ALWAYS think like that... but no.. she had to think for a moment AFTER i made the joke to come up with something...

All and all.. i wan a sound proof room.. but of course even if sucha thing was for sale i wont buy it ... waste money =.=... i'll just shut my mouth and wait and record all those soft singing shit that are so bloody awful.. cus face it.. there are times when u gotta go loud to reach certain ... uhh.. tones? and just going high pitch aint gonna cut it.. mix with my semi-broken-and-never-gonna-break-any-more voice? hell yo.. HELL .. so far manage record a few stuff .. random full and LOUD stuff which I stored on my com.. happy with them but still...shaky cus well... its like.. 4am ... ppl sleeping.. too loud = they wake up and worst.. THEY CAN HEAR =.=.. no full songs yet.. always got a few mistakes here and there which is soooo ARGH... i nid sound proof room..

oh yeah.. extra info.. my dad comes home at 3ish from work and stays home.. yeah.. privacy before 3pm... dad and sis leave at 10am... so left 11 12 1 2.. 4 hours... oh wait.. younger sis home ard 2? 3 hrs left.. maid and mum... when they leave i dunno.. PLUS I GOT SCHOOL... AND I DUN LIKE SING SO EARLY ... GOD ..=.=... irritated as of now..