Hmm.. You know.. i wont lose this fight this time..

If u said you knew.. i would say, " well then why didnt u bother? " If you said u didnt know.. i would say, " well then why didnt u bother?" it works either way.. but the thing is eventhough i know its in a way a debate of which is favourable to me..

I'll lose

Why?

You don't care

You won't care

and even till the very end.. u will try to prove.. not prove that u are right .. but prove that i am being a fool...Cus...even if the battle is lost.. the one who really loses is the one who looks the part..

I honestly don't know why things changed..at first i tot i was being retarded... but soon things began to pile up..but the biggest hit was when i was told later... now before u go crazy.. i'm meaning it more on.. why did u CALL the first one, and wait all the way till u reached home to tell me via skype.. i dun give a shit if u have LOADS to tell him.. why coulden't u msg or smth.. i was like fcking calling and msging u.. i even scared u emo and sad cus u didnt achieve wad u wanted...

Its weird u know.. i'm not trying to say i am the better person but..its really frustrating that previously( don't say now.. cus i know u sure say .. wa then nv talk to me for 2mths ?) I would defend u when u failed in games..i would try my best to actually give constructive advice rather than go, " just take the P**** and BANG BANG" ..but yet i'm not seen as a caring fren..

Wad am i to u? Am i a joke? a play-mate that u can use to fulfill a good team... i dunno why u look down on me ... i nv forcefully criticise u in games..but yet i have to hear ur criticism about the way i play ... and FYI .. u aint better than me ... u never were ..sure u will be going , " LAI 1V1 la "

Your childish if u thought that..cause it shows that despit all that u have read.. u dun give nuts about how i feel.

OH HOW U FEEL OMG LOUIS STOP BEING A SISSY..

Yeah i'm a sissy so wad... u've known that about me since the day u met me dude...Bros my ass..if this is how u treat a brother i dun wanna have anything to do with u...

I logged in skype today, hoping to ignore everythin.. i know i cant just pretend nth happened but i was willing to ignore my mood and just chill..but in the end u called me the asshole...u know that instantly made me realise that.. u still think that the one at fault is me...Often than not.. i say," u are wrong and i am wrong can we stop fighting?" .. but in the end.. i'm the only 1 who sees in this way.. for u will still feel that u are not even the least bit at fault..

And its like.. i really dun wanna post this.. i intended it to my short and mysterious like.. but i dunno anymore man.. like..wad u consider me as.. who is in the wrong and all that...

Its weird.. i'm a dude but yet here i am typing this post as if i were a girl.. i've been wondering.. are all guys jerks? I really want to know...for all i care i am a jerk too.. but srsly...wads with the difference in attitude portrayed by the two different sex...I knw i'm a male.. i'm straight.. so screw anyone with the whole i'm gay jokes cus its not the time..

Thinking back...american idol was probably the only emotional assistance u provided... the rest are all physical ones...and .. seeing that my eyes are half closed.. i shall sum this portion up with.. not everything that looks cool is cool.. sometimes the most uncooliest thing is unexpectedly cool...

A stupid satement i know...think abt it this way...You are the jork of the school.. famous and popular.. i'm the nerdest nerd...one day... tio bullied and you helped me.. and although many would be like," omg.. he helped a nerd.. wad a loser." .. in my eyes u will my like the coolest shit..

am i making sense now? haha i really dun know..my eyes are literally closed typing these stuff...

I shall just end off... i mean.. after all even if you read this.. u would have stopped halfway or showed it to the rest and try to "defend" / shoot me back...I am really tired.. i dun want to always be the one to say, " can we sort this out?".. i'm a male too.. i have just as much pride and ego as u do.. but why do i always have to make the 1st move? I'm not weak..dont see me that way...you've always thought i was all words and no action.. your wrong.. sure i didnt do things that would get me into trouble... because.. thats just stupid...and your still being childish once again for thinking this...

O well..i really don't know..all i can say/ask is...i wanna know my worth... i know it mushy and all that .. it sounds boyfriend girlfriendish but.. i'm THIS kind of person..I dont want to waste my time typing more of these things in hopes of u reading and realising your mistakes...I'm srsly tired of this...

Oh and i'm feeling bitchy now so..

i took this off sherwin's Facebook status update:"

I dont get why guys are always the jerks in the relationship. Aren't there two sides to every coin? Are ALL of you arguing that women are perfect angels who do no wrong at all?"

I have to say...I laughed..We are jersk...we seriously are jerks.. as much as i would love to defend my own "side" i have to agree to this very fact.. sure not all of us are but.. we eventually will... maybe i'm just being biased seeing that i'm having a horrible time with my male fren.. but hey.. face it.. its already a jerk-like act just my thinking of posting that up...and for those who liked it.. i dunno... i just feel that they are defending themselves...ALWAYS DEFENDING ... why? I really want to know why... cant they just reflect and see? Are the saying that males are not jerks AT ALL? why cant they just go " hmm.. well yeah.. we are jerkish sometimes...".. and yes i do admit.. girls aint the goddess in relationships but like.. why cant a simple reflecting be carried out and understand why this statement is all used.. MEN ARE JERKS..at least type...

Fine.. we may be jerks.. but.. we are not entirely at fault... and so on so forth abt sharing blame...haiz.. so funny... i cant stand it..

Sometimes i simpl y think that the problem lies in me... why was i born as some1 who reads into everything so much...a mere Dot out of placewill make me interpret incorrectly... the speed of which u reply and all that.....It just gives me problems.. i end up hurting myself and causing myself to feel shitty even without the "people who caused them" realising.

BLEH imma just go sleep...my eyes are heavy...