Ok i'm sane today :P

Ok.. i've decided to forget about it .. afterall this is simply a losing battle..I don't wanna feel frustrated and depressed anymore about this matter...

Sure it upsets me that i'm being treated differently..Sure it upsets me that i am degraded as a fren but o well.. i'll deal with it..After all.. its something that is till now unnoticed.. even if this post is read..i doubt anything will be done.. no comfrontation .. no questions .. nothing..

So i will continue what i do best.. just simply be there...

Ok.. now that thats done.. i guess i should simply .. talk :D

Well.. its study week now but BLEH.. holiday la :D .. since i only have one exam...but dun worry i wont be complacent.. cause that exam is on a subject that i am practically the worst in.. Computer shiets :(

Hmm anyway i have stuff i gotta complete by the end of the holiday and i think i shud write it here :D

1) Change blog skin -Gosh i have been looking at this boring blue shiet for so longgggg.. i really want to change it but i dunno how to edit one eventhough i have learnt weddesigning which is....:( .. so yeah will find one on blogskins.com or smth .. les some1 can make one for me :P

2)Make my birthday vid - It was suppose to be a surprise but hey not many ppl read this so .. for those who do lucky u... i will be posting a vid on FB of me singing... till date i really don't know how good/bad i am.. I know i said i dont really care.. but.. i really want to know if i'm hurting ppls ears or not :D

3) Clean my room - YUCKS.. i really want to throw stuff out :P

4) Continue training - I joined Dragonboat previously and now i've quit.. kind of a waste since i did put in lots of effort so i guess i'd try to continue a little to .. i dunno :P

5) Moisturise my skin - I know this is weird but HEY i have dry skin and although the lotion is RIGHTTTT beside me...i never seem to use it .. so yeah :P

6)Trim and dye my hair - Hmm.. this is kinda expected but till now i have no idea what colour i would dye my hair ... i was thinking blue seeing that my 1st colour was blue but i didnt have my fridge back then so.. we'll see

7)Shop - i have loads of things i gotta buy.. u know that feeling when u cleared ur room? it feels empty and u wanna fill it up with new stuff.. yeah.. clothes and stuff.. but smth u woulden't expect is....Make-up.. LOL! Its weird i know but .. i dun know why but i enjoy looking at them and playing with them like as if they were face paint.. i find it enjoyable.. considering being a make-up artist as a profession :P

8)Train Tennis - Well its the holiday.. i guess i shud continue my training with Wei Jie.. hope we can cause... TP tennis is not easy to get into.. 11 slots.. only for experienced players.. WISH ME LUCK

9)Even out my skin tone - HOLY CRAP i have chinese feet and body but the rest of me is malay... being in dragonboat has made my skin colour different and i dont like it... either i'm all tan or all white.. and ... i'd rather be tan... not many people can pull it off and i think i can :D

10)I have no idea - LOL yea.. i just wan it to end nicely but I HAVE NO IDEA LOL

Haha .. anyway its super late.. and i guess i should be sleeping.. will post abt my poly year one next time.. for now.. see ya :D