I'm gonna be late for my meeting but.. haha screw that :D You know... sometimes in life..even when all the info or clues are smacked straight in your face...you'll still fail to solve the issue... like a detective.. for a first timer...even when clues are there...you might tend to be nervous in solving the issue.. why? Because your scared to be wrong..I guess thats why we sometimes choose to hide our answers so as escape this judgement.. OH CRAP REALLY LATE ARGH MEETING AT ONE STILL AT HOME HAVEN BRUSH TEETH! WHY AM I EVEN TYPING ALL THIS IN CAPS I SHOULD JUST POST! ARGH STILL TYPING! HAHAHA... Just a random post that i felt like typing :P

Two seperate things that I feel like talking about today.

First :

You know.. often things happen...and friends get mad at each other...and if anyone knows me.. i simply choose to like.. not fight back but ignore.. i'm kinda getting pissed with myself for that..i'm not mad at anyone now.. but i just suddenly recalled this trait and it got me thinking...Thing is.. if i'm mad at some1 and we get into a heated argument.. I know i'd lose...cause i don't know why but the rule of "not interupting others when they are speaking" seems to be the number rule whenever i am arguing with some1..which is SUPPOSED to be like the LAST rule ...so you'll see me waiting for them to finish before i speak.. but as we all know.. when arguing.. 2 things are occuring

1) constant talking

2) constant interupting of speech..

So yes.. i will have some1 outtalking me while i wait.. And part of me now finds it a rather annoying fact about myself as.. i cant defend myself nor argue back for nuts... another part finds it hilarious as..if i recall correctly.. all i can do is stun there or walk away.. and face it.. both of it is simply a lost :X..

And this is where i started thinking...wow...people who fight with their fist are probably just the same.. cause face it.. in a heated argument.. one punch and i'd win ..the only way i can win..even in a argument.. the first thing that comes to my mind is to smack the person cause.. i know i cant argue nor fight back with words..but of course.. i wont do that...i've always "laughed" at those kids who fight back against those bullies in school.. cause.. they're always the ones who gets into trouble.. not the bullies.. its weird .. i feel that its great that they stick up for themselves but.. in the end they still get into huge shit like getting their ass suspended from school..

bullies ar bullies.. why u all so lucky...you guys are actually the weaklings but yet we get bullied by you.. for what ar? cause we want to succeed in life duh...and we cant do that if we get expelled now will we... rofl just a random thought here :P

Second :

I HATE being the leader... but even though i aint assigned the role, i have to be one or at least act like one.... ShiHui would best understand this...except she is competent while.. i'm not Haha...

Ok but that aside.. i cant stand it when shit is thrown at me without the least bit of effort being done to it before thrown..as in... THINK for like 5 sec on how to handle the problem ...dont keep asking me man...

and like...once u become a leader and do an "ok" job.. ppl associate u as one.. like Louis = leader.. WHY!? DONT! .. and then when i do a bad job..i get "Shot" saying i'm a bad leader when in reality.. i was not the leader in the 1st place.. am i making sense?

BLEH.. anyway i'm kinda in the bleh bleh mood... nothing really going on lately...a few annoying stuff here and there but nth that really got me ranting like OMG :D... i still wanna change my blogskin but mannnnnn i'm procrastinating again! ...

Cleared 1/10 of my room yesterday so happy :D muahhaha 2 full plastic bags of crap thrown :D .. omg.. means... 1 unit = 2... 10 unit = 20... 10 - 1 = 9 unit.... 9 unit = 20 - 2 ... 18 PLASTIC BAGS MORE !? omg... waste lol ok bye bye

Age does not define intellect not maturity .. in my opinion at least..

Its another ranting post so please don't mind me.. if u cant stand rants and/or brags then please press the 'X' for this might be very self-praising and thus, annoying.

Sometimes if might seem that i want people to be like me... or at least a bit more like me.. not the bad parts abt me which includes procrastination and constant ranting and all that .. but the positives..

I'm one to listen .. if a comment is meaningful, i will listen and change myself to be someone better..and this is where my rant starts...i cant stand people who dont bother to listen to meaningful advices...the only advice i ignore are those that are meaningless or colide with my other ideas and thus making me not able to heed them...so when some1 ignores my advices...i get pissed...because.. unless u have some inner ideal that colides with this advice .. i cant do anything.. because u believe in wad u want to believe in and i cant change that nor should u change urself to fit this advice given and end up having a colition with this ideal u follow truely..and thing is.. i sensitive in what i say.. i dont randomly throw shit advices unless its meant to be a joke....so by ignoring... it says that my advices are meaningless to u.. and by meaningless.. u treat it like a joke despite my srs face...

ok i kinda lost my reasoning of typing this post.. i know i'm pissed but bleh.. i'll just cut it off here..but all i know is...teaching is not teaching YOUR own methods...even i wont understand what your teaching if u made me learn it your way.. i NEVER write notes...and it says something if i have no idea what your teaching despit it being primary school work

Ho.. Ho...Ho...Yes santa is here .. to give out the "LOUIS IS FCKING PISSED OFF AGAIN" Post :D

Ok...u know even if i hated some1, i would always try to keep it to myself.. why? I know everyone has feelings ok.. i wont go abt trying to insult or pull some1 down just cus i dispised that person..

And u know.. its VERY .. and i mean VERY easy to just insult some1...no joke.. REALLY simple...
"Wah *name* is sucha ....."

Piece of cake..

But even for THAT person.. i am willingly to go to greater pains just to ensure that the person does not know i am talking about him or her...u know wad i mean right? I'll reconstruct my entire sentence.. even this post.. i reconstructed EVERYTHING just for a person... u know why? I GIVE A SHIT ABOUT HOW THEY FEEL...i can easily go about saying *name* is a fcker...but i wont.. eventthough i know that the person doesnt read my blog .. i will still do it.. why ar louis?

Very frustrated...even to people i dislike..I still care... wads shits man? You know.. people assume that i'm trying to avoid conflict .. trying to hide from troubles cause i'm a wuss .. but its totally different...I know its lame to say i've learn martial arts because in reality .. most of those is crap..but in all honestly.. i wont lose in a fist fight..eventhough i've never fought before except for during sparring sessions.. i know i wont lose ..(of course to those i know la.. cause i've pretty much guage who can do shit to me and who cant.. and i must say i'm pretty much safe :P )

But its TOTALLY different man...i try to avoid conflict not cause i'm scared..but because i dont see the reason to...Why should i get myself into a fist fight ? Law .. parents.. no thanks ..its not worth the time and effort...why should i hurt your feelings? I wont be any better than a jerk.. a bully..

But ur thinking.. then how can i change and be a better person... in all honesty...will anyone give a shit? If i straight up insult u.. 99% you'll hate me ... you'll defend yourself or you'll say stuff like ," THEN YOU LEH?" ... Theres no point... i'd rather keep it to myself and let you stay happy...

Haiz.. even to foes.. i'm too nice .. wth is wrong with the picture man..

And now.. the whole insulting me portion... i'm frustrated..I've loads to say... minor and major issues...but i hold them back..just to ensure we're all "happy" but yet i've to deal with *beep* people .. who don't see things the way i do..

Yes.. we have different views.. but seriously.. HOW CAN PEOPLE BE SO FCKING INSENSITIVE ... like.. man.. seriously? Even if its a minor insult .. i'm willingly to hold it in.. FOR YOU.. why on earth do i have to hold it in while u get away with a direct insult to me..Why do i still continue to care for you like some brother while i get smacked across the face with insults like a fcking dog? its retarded

You know.. this post COULD be made longer.. but if i do so.. my brain will burst from thinking of methods to rephrase my "direct insults" ... please dun assume who i'm talking about.. although it was supposedly meant for someone.. it aint anymore.. its a general thing.. PLUS the someone doesnt read my blog nor knows my URL so chill..

Anyway.. i've been wanting to change blog skins but as of now.. i think the default templates are still the best and easiest to use.. so ... will be changing to another one soon..blue is just.. bleh...unless if its on my hair :P but YUCKS..so little blue and silver. :( i think i might go for a retouchup but.. bleh.. we'll see... anyway .. imma gtg have tennis tomorrow :D

PS.. please include ur name when asking me a question on formspring.. although.. no 1 really asks me anything LOL no question till date.. guess not many people read my blogs but o well :D ranting purposes and updates only :P

Its 5:40am and i cant sleep... so i guess i shall post...

Gonna do my hair on monday :D I kinda have no idea wad colour i'm gonna dye it this time.. i dun wanna damage it cus i miss my smooth hair XD but at the same time.. why not right? after all this might be my last year being able to have loud coloured hair... o well.. blue ? XD

I kinda dun really have much to say.. been slacking and playing practically everyday which is .. kinda boring XD .. wad can i say .. when u are bored u know its holiday hahas

Anyway, just recently .. ok actually i've known for a long time but...yeah shall just say that.. sometimes its so annoying to not rant... people may think that i rant alot but i feel bad to say that its not even half of wad i wanna rant... there are so many things in this world that urks me... i dun hate my life but i have this annoying feature about me that wants things to be a certain way...or something like that... i'm not an asshole 1stly... i know right now i sound like 1 but its just hard to express it properly with words...

Anyway the point isnt about my distaste for many things... but rather...sometimes people say smth as a joke..right.. sure i may get insulted but i know its a joke so i woulden't bother... and soon it becomes the NORM.. people start to constantly refer me as something that the joke chooses to impose on me...And i still know its a joke but as it progresses it really gets irritateable...and finally i choose to tell them off... but thing is.. it always turns out two different ways... one is that they apologise and stop for only awhile but continue soon after because it has already became a habit...and another is that they will THINK that this joke implication on me is reality .. and they will go on and on about it... which is really annoying to me...

But then again even if i tried to stop this from happening at the start.. people say i'm too sensitive...YES i'm OVERLY sensitive.. we get it.. i know we all know... and now its a joke to others too that i'm this way...i dunno.. its just frustrating to me.. there are already so many things that urk me and yet i have to bear with this too...its like...

ok imagine this... a feather to u is like a rock to me... so...a rock to u will be ...HOLY CRAP... so yeah... i am petty and such and being so wad might seem small to u is in fact huge to me.. to add on.. i have loads of YOUR feathers...am i making sense? LOL

O well...before readers start going louis quit ur blabbering and ur FML's.. i dun hate my life nor do i hate on people.. i'm just typing loads of shit here that u guys bother to read :D ...o wait.. maybe i am hating on people.. who knows :P

Oh a little insight on wad i mean by issues that are ranked as feathers for u guys..hmm ok.. i read into crap alot i dunno why... so like on msn right..things like how fast u reply me and how u reply me matters...and because of that i have loads of internal battles to figure out the situation of the person i am talking to.. am i annoying them? disturbing? all that... and like.. although it might seem like nth... i care alot about this...and sometimes .. even though its just an assumtion.. i get really pissed with myself if i THINK i am disturbing some1 too much...and then i can spend the rest of the day annoying myself with shit like.. "Louis why are u so dumb clearly she is busy =.=" lol

Yeah..thats how i am :X

But hey .. i like being this way hahas... although its annoying i kinda am 75% of the time right about the situation of the person... ok actually i dunno since...even if i ask .. my frens wont be so bad as to say YES I AM BUSY NOW GO AWAY... except for nuri.. but.. she's a bitch :D lol ( we love calling each other names so dun judge me.. she's still a good fren to me ok :P )

wow i think i went off topic...hmm.. i needa go toilet.. lol...WHOA ITS 6...once again i didnt sleep early =.=... my brain's clock is messed up...

Hmm.. shall try to change my blog skin asap... its really frustrating to look at hahas.. alrighty thanks for reading yo ~ Talk to yall soon :D