Ok A long rant? Hahas..

First one is on school alright?

Ok now.. i saw my marks for a designing work thingy today...I Got a C... now, if it were my fault, i would usually blame myself for being a total idiot.. but this time.. no way.. after 4 weeks of work and by work i mean designing shit...they tell us that we need to Screenshot the work in a process form..meaning maybe take a screenshot after every step.. and i'm like.. shit? I've done so much shit already and now u tell me this? And thing is.. the teacher NEVER comments on our blogs to tell us anything and now he smiles when he gives me a C and Ds and Fs to everyone else? Its totally unfair and retarded.. And he still has the cheek to give us more assignments on that same day, telling us to complete them fast asap cause our MAIN assignment is due soon...wtf is wrong with this subject? You give us this MAIN assignment crap and many "tiny" other assignments to complete each week.. how the F do u think we can finish? Not to mention, now i have to redo all my pass weeks' work PLUS add in the new ones using the "new" format which btw is HECK OF A LONGER.. screenshots so many times =.= my desktop no space liao =.=

But haha on a funny side.. i raged infront of the teacher just now.. he TRIED so hard to talk to us..but seriously he is on the losing end.. and the moment he said "even I(the teacher) dunno this mark scheme" i srsly rage.. not in angry berserk mode la.. i'm not a total idiot.. he was trying to tell me that there are other methods to complete the work..all that.. but like.. i dun believe it.. no way man.. imagine a work with little pictures and one with more.. which will win.. like.. the one with more duh =.=.. and its like.. wad kind of responsibility is this man... anyway I straight up say "Cher i know .. even if there are other methods, its still unfair to us that we know all this last min.. then we need redo everything!" then i stomp out of the room LOLLOL... my frens all stun haha... but hey.. i very nice le lo... other ppl will scold scold.. i very sensible :D *praise self* XD k la next one :P

Next one is..well..family day..

You know..many of my frens might think that i am rich cus of the way i spend.. but honestly i am not.. sure i maybe slightly more well off.. but.. to be frank.. i really dun count myself as a goldmine spender ... wait till u see my family members...

Anyway.. having met my frens in secondary.. i guess i begin to dislike my family spending so much.. tbh i always disliked it but thru my frens i disliked it more..not blaming them.. it was ALWAYS in me but.. its like a catalyse :P

Anyway..a few weeks ago on family day.. i got pissed again cus of this.. we ate korean and they were so picky.. i mean comeon.. even though i'm picky too, i try to get wad i eat .. like last time fish and chips got beans.. i now beginning us for NO BEANS! :D.. anyway i was pissed.. my face was as black as a N**** .. wad.. ninja man ninja :D .. so anyway its funny.. usually when ppl see u like that..its like a HUGE caution on the head .. DUN DISTURB!!!!!.. but No.. my sister had to constantly ask me why i like bad mood .. and like.. i cant say that i hate how they spend in my face.. cus she.. being how she is.. will ALWAYS bring up stuff that somehow have a slight contradicatory factor to it.. like she will say.. THEN U BUY THOSE MOISTURISER FOR YOURSELF $30!.. and like.. shit son... u buy $80 worth.. but yet she will somehow argue her way to "victory" .. anyway thats not the point.. i tried to be nice.. and give her hints by replying short and "annoyed sounding" answers.. SHE DIDNT GET IT! .. gosh.. in the end she got pissed and shouted at me in public =.=.. and i'm like still dao-ing her despite that.. seriously.. its madness.. u might be thinking.. THEN WHY DONT U TELL HER U ARE NOT IN A GOOD MOOD LOUIS!? .. 1) when u are in a bad mood.. do u straight up tell ? at most 20% of the time.. i was in the 80% state... 2) MOST OF THE TIME U JUST GIVE ANNOYED ANS COMEON!..

Yeah..and she tells my mom about me being angry..heng its one of those days where my mom TRIES to talk to me.. otherwise she'll say its my games making me more violent bla bla and will make me more pissed... i'll say one thing .. i'm not violent.. as much as i can punch them lifeless and i thought about it.. more of me is sensible and more mature then they expect .. tbh .. i feel that i am the most mature amongst my sisters...i cant explain why.. cus it'll be too hard to explain and too long.. but yeah.. its just my opinion..

Haiz.. reading thru it made me realise why i have a slight dislike for my sisters... its like.. they give me more pressure..My elder sis now looking for job.. so ok la... but i see her spend.. i very pek chek.. its like.. i'll often hear her say "WA MOMMY THIS THIS THAT THAT SO CHEAP LEH ONLY $100+ .." and i'm like... wtf.....and my mom will agree and i will further WTF...then my younger sister... her education.. haiz... i see also pek chek..now my mom asking me and my elder sis teach her.. and analysing the thing... it would take loads of luck for her just to get into NA..and she now become materialistic also..gg more money lo..

darn..like my sisters.. i hate studying..like SERIOUSLY HATE to the core.. but yet seeing them i have to work hard..even though i procrastinate to the last min.. i really never stop trying.. every time i play.. my mind is focused on work.. i can never enjoy..its so frustrating cause i know if i fail...cannot depend on anyone else le...then that day family day..i dunno why i so weird stand beside my dad ask him stand at mirror .. i'm nearly as tall as him.. gosh.. last time he so much taller its like.. time goes by so fast.. soon he has to retire.. then financial how? Only kao me le mah...i want my family to enjoy life .. and not "fake" enjoy like me.. play game then think about their children.. i dun wan.. i wan them sit down or lie down watch tv.. talk to each other and like.. happy la..

Why am i surrounded my incompetence.. my teacher cant tell me shit properly.. my marks will drop cus of him.. and if i cant get into SG uni.. i nid go other country.. then pay more... not only that.. my sisters must add on more crap.. one spends .. one study CMI..

That day go school..whole journey on bus keep hearing a kid cry " I DONT WANT GO SCHOOL" and i'm like.. shit son.. i dont wanna go school either but grow up .. u cant live off ur parents forever.. of course i didnt say that to him la.. but i was thinking that lol.. how i wish i can say this to my younger sister...but she wont listen.. she's too pampered and too immature..

I guess i'm abit lucky too..because i know how my elder sister is doing.. i feel that i matured fast at a younger age.. while ppl were thinking of pokemon cards and wad cartoon they were going to watch.. i was busy analysing who can lead the family or smth like that..then make me "work" hard.. i dunno la.. smth like that.. on the other hand.. my younger sister is "against" me.. and like.. i dunno la.. i feel that she has the thought that i will "lead" this family and so she dunnid study so hard.. gosh how i wish i can slap her and tell her to grow up...o well..

Right.. thats a long rant.. imma go slp.. i really gotta do work..PROCRASTINATIONS A BITCH!

Here comes a rant...

I srsly hate how i suck at the things i love to do...why i'm ranting about this? Cause i am almost 100% not in squash team.. why.. well.. just like in any other racket game.. my strokes were horrible .. Thats the thing.. my strokes are ALWAYS HORRIBLE.. i dunno why.. but when i play, i can win.. i dun get it really.. why do i suck so bad.. its like i'm always missing a certain elements.. Lets go down an awesome list shall we?

Singing - I know the range, i can reach all of them.. but my voice is fucking disgusting..why did my body get confused whether to break voice or not.. cause now i'm stuck in the middle.. a retard half female half male voice.. sure i can reach notes easily.. but it sounds disgusting

Dancing - Yes i can dance.. i can remember steps DAMN easily and do each move with loads of confidence and power.. but my body proportions is just not right, making me look awekward when i dance...

Racket game - be it tennis , squash or badminton , i can win.. i can play quite well.. but the thing is.. i NEVER have good strokes.. i really dunno why.. maybe cus my imagination allows me to come up with funky moves that allows me to hit the ball to unpredictable places... another factor is my speed...i'm..QUITE fast :X

Running - Yes i did say i'm QUITE fast.. not VERY but quite.. but thing is.. i have shit stamina.. its retarded like really.. in tennis class , the youngest of children can run longer than me...

Its kinda annoying reading this.. i'm always missing out on a certain element and this frustrates me...i can think of more random ones like gaming? I can play quite well but i panic each time i play with frens... Work? I can do good work but i procrastinate like mad..

Seriously pissed off LOL :X

"Jiayou... Lets work hard yo :D.. i'm gonna conquer wadever shitty missing elements i have you gotta work hard on.. watever u have to too :D And..You are not asses.. well.. not all of us are.. we are dumb though.. sometimes we just dunno that a small action can cause a huge amount of distress.. its weird...even for me who analyse stuff alot.. i cant full comprehand whether or not i hurt you guys.. i do make guesses every now and then that i did.. but.. we know each other.. we'll deny it .. so yes..we are dumb... we dunno..some of us do care.. but others... meh...:X "

I swear to god.. my in3d class is the most fucked up class ever =.=

Its like.. we have an assignment right? but yet every single fucking day we have to upload shit work that is so fucking hard to do.. they give retardedly difficult to understand PDF files that totally confuses the shit out of me .. and worst of all.. its graded too

now.. wads wrong with this picture..

1).. if we have a fucking assignment.. why give us these fucked up "mini" work that is ALSO graded.. how on earth do they want us to complete this shit?

2)Why cant they give us a video of how to do the work? PDF is all words .. wad add the top layer to the 2nd squares layer on the top side near the right side.. Wad the fuck? ( please note i made up the phrase ) So far.. only the videos are shits that i can actually complete.. as for the PDF files? all and i mean ALL of it, i cheated and just ignore the instructions and try my best to duplicate the needed outcome..

Its retarded and fucked up..like seriously.. and now.. the teacher.. seriously pissing me off all the time =.=... He walks around and waits for us ask questions... Now .. for me .. i hate this... why cant he take initiative and check if we can do our work? Nevermind.. i finally asked him how to do .. and all he did was ask me to redo and check if lets say i followed the instructions properly .. like wtf? I did it like... 9 times.. and seriously i followed it till i memorised the words and steps already ... and ..WHY THE FUCKING HELL WOULD I ASK U IF I DIDNT KNOW WAD TO DO...its like.. obviously i would ask if i REALLY dunno how to do right =.=...Yes i'm a stupid fucker that doesnt know how to do these types of designing stuff then too bad for me la..dao mei come this course... so many retarded people that piss me off...Ask for help they ask me ask fren ....ask for help they tell me see steps again...Thanks for the help.. as if i cant do that on my own =.=.. wads the point of being a teacher if u cant do the simplest task of teaching your students... Fucked up seriously.. I really cant stand such incompetence.. yes i'm incompetent and fucking stupid for not knowing how to do this designing work.. but isnt it ur job to help me then?

Retards ... Waste my time and effort... How to get my 3.5Gpa ? Have to deal with these people.... So far i only have like... 2 good teachers since my time here in TP... really man.. adults these days ...

Bleh.. on the bright side, i've got into squash final trials :D.. yayyyyy but i didnt get into tennis :(

Meow~ Now in lab .. suppose do work.. but fucking hell its two PDF files again.. and the phrasing is so horrible.. i really dunno wad the teachers are thinking.. and leave give MORE and CLEARER pictures of the steps ... think we wad? Genius?

Great pissed off again... Meh... will be done in like 1 hr so for now.. screw this assignment...aiming for B only ..yes i know.. surprised? Me too but this subject really cannot A de.. too much retardations here. :X wow long post.. ok time to go my classmates are back .. Meow~ :X

Bleh.. gonna buy that 10kg weights myself...Why so sudden? cause my mom keep saying dont buy cus she never see me use the 6kg weights that i have now.. but thing is .. i'm the type that dun wanna reveal too much..and like i always lock the door so that i can.. u know .. do my stuff...but gosh =.= but i dunno why but it seems like EVERY SINGLE TIME i wanna start doing my workout...they keep coming in..and of course.. i locked the door then they'll be like.. LOUIS WAD U DOING AR ?! =.=...its annoying and frustrating..cus most of the time when i feel like doing it.. their at home i dunno why...i'm too lazy to work out when their out ...its BLEH!

Ok anyway...today i skipped class :D YAY! cause the competition i am in allows me to go for this competition viewing thingy conference bleh :X ...and like.. yeah we went and it was quite fun and cool.. had loads of laughs and jokes ..." watched" the 4 teams present ...by watched.. i was playing games on my lappy LOL...all i know is tp won for their idea of helping stroke patients via kinect :X

Yeah.. i dunno why i'm posting.. really have nothing..the weights are like beside me but i'm not gonna try to work out again ... gosh...really annoying =.=...

Like last time.. my sister went to USA for 1 month..ALMOST EVERYDAY call home.. SOOO ANNOYING... like.. whats the point of saying bye bye if ur gonna call everyday...look at me? i went to hainan for a week and only msg once when i reached and once when i'm going back...

Same for here.. i RARELY go to my sister's room and mom's room..but everyday.. they never fail to come in to interupt me...meow~! I know i'm suppose to appreciate my family now before its too late.. but..honestly.. its annoying..

Meow~...My birthday just ended..felt like another normal day to me honestly..

I know i'm being an ass by saying this but.. i was treated like normal..I'd thought it would be a special day for me .. to like.. not do work but o well..

You know.. many times, despite some of my friends being embarassed when doing stuff like these, i find myself wishing i would be surprised.. like.. i would be so happy to see my friends bring in a cake and singing happy birthday song to me...even if people stare at me .. i would be happy..I guess thats why i get annoyed when i hear my friends say stuff like " dont wan la .. so diu lian" ..

But of course.. it'll hardly happen cus.. i'm an asscrack that always predict these stuff...i cant help it.. like yesterday when my sister hid her present in the fridge , disguising it to look like a cake..i had to ruin both our fun by analysing her tone, her choice of words and actions to figure out that she wanted to show me the present...

The plan was that she pretended she was mad at me for getting two cakes and asked me to go see .. but darn me.. i already knew the plan by then..and as much as i pretended to be blur by looking at the big box first which was clearly the real cake, the excitement was lost..

And thats not all.. even the candles of the cake... i had to analyse each candle.. why? I dunno.. and yes she swapped some of the real candles with relightable ones... and.. i guessed it.. spoiling the fun again lol..

so yeah.. and by now... my friends who are reading this might be annoyed with me... cause.. yeah...i cant help it..

Bleh.. anyway i dunno why i've been in the habit of posting very often...maybe cause its easier for one of my close fren to "communicate" with me.. so yeah :X

Anyway i really gotta do some stuff..

1) clear my room.. I FAILED TO DO SO IN THE HOLI!!!!

2) Check my tennis results.. it was out last week but.. lazy me :X

3) buy my 10kg weights.. srsly.. my mom keeps saying dont buy cus its too heavy.. and i'm like...Seriously? Meow~

And ARGH I KEEP USING MEOW~... lol...I BLAME YOU!! :P u know who u are ~ :P

Anyway imma go sleepy sleep..its like 2:07...gotta rush assignment tomorrow RWAR!

"Thanks for the wishes, and its never too early.. after all its just a number right? :D"

Me Me Me... can stand people thinking that the world revolves around them..

I can take a hint.. srsly.. u tell me ur pissed, i'll back away and leave u be... u glare at me i will stop asking whether you are all right and back away..Why cant u do the same for me? Is it so hard? Its stupid how i'm getting annoyed by so many things today...

I was supposed to be happy now but after reading all the facebook shit about politics..all i can say is..

WHO GIVES A FUCK!? my god.. so many post on politics and i'm like wtf? Do u know what happens inside? Do u know the political mind fucks they do to the opposition team and all that?

No u dont =.=... all u know and care about is the god damn results ... Its so infuriating to see people type so much crap about the different parties when they dun even know nuts about politics..i mean srsly.. if u knew politics u should be a politician ..

Like dude.. dun act smart talk so much crap..ultimately all u know is who won and who lost THATS IT.. u dunno the situation they were in.. u dunno how much trouble and effort they all put in so stfu. EVEN I DUNNO NUTS.. comeon man..

If your so god damn smart.. go get a high gpa for me=.=... dun waste ur effort trying to understand shit that u cant comprehand..thats the problem with singaporeans.. we are too kiasu..complain alot.. talk alot.. but when nid do something.. silent...so ai zai? GO CREATE SOME FUCKING PARTY AND PAY LIKE DUNNO HOW MANY K OF MONEY AND RUN LO...

Its all about Singapore.. i dun give nuts about who win and who loses.. isnt the goal just to make singapore a better place? U wan pap to lose ? fine so be it.. why need to diss them ? Remember that they DID do shit for our country to begin with.. or have we all forgotten everything they did.. sure its frustrating now.. with the stupid pay and pay...so be it la.. vote for some other party.. but dun diss them =.= Until they throw bombs at ur face...stfu

Thanks zazz for telling me i post twice.. why am i posting here? Cus...Well.. i didnt see ur message till 2 hrs later and its like.. 1am ++? so i scared msg wake u up...:X

Hmm.. i dunno why..but i was randomly thinking about how my life could progress..it was just uber random seeing that i was in the bus..

I'm like..18 soon and like.. i'm still young..sort of eh :P but i dunno i starting thinking abt life and death.. like.. my mom and dad aint young and u know.. at any time..*fly fly*... its so weird..and then i realise that i really dislike them for constantly reminding us how they'll *ahem* .. saying wad...who take wad ..and how we need job before they *ahem*.. its so tootish.. i mean.. i'm still young yo.. i dun wanna think abt losing my parents at sucha young age...

Anyway..after those random thoughts.. i started thinking about wedding...how i'll totally NOT do those retarded games to get my bride...and MAINLY.. random thoughts of me singing "mama's song" by carrie underwood to my mom and dad...it was weird thinking abt it but i feel happy haha..

I'm some weird kid eh?

Back from tennis trials.. and i must say .. i highly doubt i will get in.. but hey ..i really saw a huge improvement as compared to last year and am quite pleased with it.. but hey.. guess i aint cut out for tennis

Anyway just a sudden thought.. i realise that the nicest of people doesnt have to be the one who cares for you the most..now before any of u start judging .. this is just a random thought cus i realise.. despite hearing them say that they dun care..i feel that they do.. if like i was reallly really sad...they will give a shit about me and like.. try to cheer me up even if its in an insultive manner..

Just a random thought...

ANYWAY! i have jap tomorrow and am EXCITED FOR IT...also there is that tennis results thing.. but meh.. dun give a shit cus i highly doubt i'd get in.. didnt stand out enuf ..(looks at hair)... SKILL WISE! LOL ..

Alrighty am gonna go slack...:D cheerio :D

oh ya.. i keep using meow~... i blame zazz for this... LOL

Wow.. 2nd week of school and so much work.. gosh.. hating this..

Anyway just got back from squash trials and i must say.. I AM OUT OF SHAPE! ..just like 15 sec of sprinting and my thigh was like.. close to cramping.. maybe its cus i didnt eat dinner but hey.. :P

Anyway.. am hoping so badly to get into tennis.. soooo badly ... but hmm i dunno wish me luck..

Anyway a random thought.. u know how u sometimes have loads to say .. negative things maybe.. and all of a sudden one happy incident occured making u unwilling to post all those negative stuff... i kinda wish i can blog outside...haha.. sometimes wan rant but then suddenly happy then dun wan rant le :X.. I WAN RANT!!!

Hmm.. yeah.. i dunno why i'm posting again.. am trying to get into the habit...

Oh side note.. the mosquito bites i got from jennifer's house the other day.. ARE STILL HERE! argh... i had clear spotless legs.. i mean there's hair but... SPOTLESS... now.. 30+ mosquito bites all over...NOOOOOOO

What other random stuff .. hmm...

Oh ya.. I WAN 3.5 GPA! RWAR OK BYE :D

Woots.. i'm in the lab now posting... WEEEEEEEE so random...

Gosh i'm having squash later and i swear to god i am so nervous.. its sucha last min decision to go for squash trials today cus initially its on friday :X .. in my jeans.. and my normal T-shirt.. tell me how am i gonna do nuts? O well.. we'll just have to see :D

In life, even the most insignificant action can cause so much emotional distress to someone... A wink, a sentence, a hint, etc...At times, it might seem like it is nothing but that might not be the case...

Or isit just me...

You know that ANNOYING feeling.. when u have SOO MUCH u wanna write.. but realise u cant because people read your blog/facebook status/twitter bla bla.. Hate it LOL

O well.. i realise that i've failed in changing my blog skin..AGAIN.. lol.. also i kinda deleted most of the recordings i did when my family were out.. i just cant bring myself to post vids of me singing on facebook..i wanna know the truth but .. u know how the truth always hurts right? yeah...

O well.. tuesday is tennis trials and i'm kinda nervous for it.. injured my hand during the trip to hainan and it hasn't cured till now.. YUCKS! ...

fine imma go.. its late and i've a practice game with Wei Jie tomorrow :D.. so chao :D