Ok A long rant? Hahas..

First one is on school alright?

Ok now.. i saw my marks for a designing work thingy today...I Got a C... now, if it were my fault, i would usually blame myself for being a total idiot.. but this time.. no way.. after 4 weeks of work and by work i mean designing shit...they tell us that we need to Screenshot the work in a process form..meaning maybe take a screenshot after every step.. and i'm like.. shit? I've done so much shit already and now u tell me this? And thing is.. the teacher NEVER comments on our blogs to tell us anything and now he smiles when he gives me a C and Ds and Fs to everyone else? Its totally unfair and retarded.. And he still has the cheek to give us more assignments on that same day, telling us to complete them fast asap cause our MAIN assignment is due soon...wtf is wrong with this subject? You give us this MAIN assignment crap and many "tiny" other assignments to complete each week.. how the F do u think we can finish? Not to mention, now i have to redo all my pass weeks' work PLUS add in the new ones using the "new" format which btw is HECK OF A LONGER.. screenshots so many times =.= my desktop no space liao =.=

But haha on a funny side.. i raged infront of the teacher just now.. he TRIED so hard to talk to us..but seriously he is on the losing end.. and the moment he said "even I(the teacher) dunno this mark scheme" i srsly rage.. not in angry berserk mode la.. i'm not a total idiot.. he was trying to tell me that there are other methods to complete the work..all that.. but like.. i dun believe it.. no way man.. imagine a work with little pictures and one with more.. which will win.. like.. the one with more duh =.=.. and its like.. wad kind of responsibility is this man... anyway I straight up say "Cher i know .. even if there are other methods, its still unfair to us that we know all this last min.. then we need redo everything!" then i stomp out of the room LOLLOL... my frens all stun haha... but hey.. i very nice le lo... other ppl will scold scold.. i very sensible :D *praise self* XD k la next one :P

Next one is..well..family day..

You know..many of my frens might think that i am rich cus of the way i spend.. but honestly i am not.. sure i maybe slightly more well off.. but.. to be frank.. i really dun count myself as a goldmine spender ... wait till u see my family members...

Anyway.. having met my frens in secondary.. i guess i begin to dislike my family spending so much.. tbh i always disliked it but thru my frens i disliked it more..not blaming them.. it was ALWAYS in me but.. its like a catalyse :P

Anyway..a few weeks ago on family day.. i got pissed again cus of this.. we ate korean and they were so picky.. i mean comeon.. even though i'm picky too, i try to get wad i eat .. like last time fish and chips got beans.. i now beginning us for NO BEANS! :D.. anyway i was pissed.. my face was as black as a N**** .. wad.. ninja man ninja :D .. so anyway its funny.. usually when ppl see u like that..its like a HUGE caution on the head .. DUN DISTURB!!!!!.. but No.. my sister had to constantly ask me why i like bad mood .. and like.. i cant say that i hate how they spend in my face.. cus she.. being how she is.. will ALWAYS bring up stuff that somehow have a slight contradicatory factor to it.. like she will say.. THEN U BUY THOSE MOISTURISER FOR YOURSELF $30!.. and like.. shit son... u buy $80 worth.. but yet she will somehow argue her way to "victory" .. anyway thats not the point.. i tried to be nice.. and give her hints by replying short and "annoyed sounding" answers.. SHE DIDNT GET IT! .. gosh.. in the end she got pissed and shouted at me in public =.=.. and i'm like still dao-ing her despite that.. seriously.. its madness.. u might be thinking.. THEN WHY DONT U TELL HER U ARE NOT IN A GOOD MOOD LOUIS!? .. 1) when u are in a bad mood.. do u straight up tell ? at most 20% of the time.. i was in the 80% state... 2) MOST OF THE TIME U JUST GIVE ANNOYED ANS COMEON!..

Yeah..and she tells my mom about me being angry..heng its one of those days where my mom TRIES to talk to me.. otherwise she'll say its my games making me more violent bla bla and will make me more pissed... i'll say one thing .. i'm not violent.. as much as i can punch them lifeless and i thought about it.. more of me is sensible and more mature then they expect .. tbh .. i feel that i am the most mature amongst my sisters...i cant explain why.. cus it'll be too hard to explain and too long.. but yeah.. its just my opinion..

Haiz.. reading thru it made me realise why i have a slight dislike for my sisters... its like.. they give me more pressure..My elder sis now looking for job.. so ok la... but i see her spend.. i very pek chek.. its like.. i'll often hear her say "WA MOMMY THIS THIS THAT THAT SO CHEAP LEH ONLY $100+ .." and i'm like... wtf.....and my mom will agree and i will further WTF...then my younger sister... her education.. haiz... i see also pek chek..now my mom asking me and my elder sis teach her.. and analysing the thing... it would take loads of luck for her just to get into NA..and she now become materialistic also..gg more money lo..

darn..like my sisters.. i hate studying..like SERIOUSLY HATE to the core.. but yet seeing them i have to work hard..even though i procrastinate to the last min.. i really never stop trying.. every time i play.. my mind is focused on work.. i can never enjoy..its so frustrating cause i know if i fail...cannot depend on anyone else le...then that day family day..i dunno why i so weird stand beside my dad ask him stand at mirror .. i'm nearly as tall as him.. gosh.. last time he so much taller its like.. time goes by so fast.. soon he has to retire.. then financial how? Only kao me le mah...i want my family to enjoy life .. and not "fake" enjoy like me.. play game then think about their children.. i dun wan.. i wan them sit down or lie down watch tv.. talk to each other and like.. happy la..

Why am i surrounded my incompetence.. my teacher cant tell me shit properly.. my marks will drop cus of him.. and if i cant get into SG uni.. i nid go other country.. then pay more... not only that.. my sisters must add on more crap.. one spends .. one study CMI..

That day go school..whole journey on bus keep hearing a kid cry " I DONT WANT GO SCHOOL" and i'm like.. shit son.. i dont wanna go school either but grow up .. u cant live off ur parents forever.. of course i didnt say that to him la.. but i was thinking that lol.. how i wish i can say this to my younger sister...but she wont listen.. she's too pampered and too immature..

I guess i'm abit lucky too..because i know how my elder sister is doing.. i feel that i matured fast at a younger age.. while ppl were thinking of pokemon cards and wad cartoon they were going to watch.. i was busy analysing who can lead the family or smth like that..then make me "work" hard.. i dunno la.. smth like that.. on the other hand.. my younger sister is "against" me.. and like.. i dunno la.. i feel that she has the thought that i will "lead" this family and so she dunnid study so hard.. gosh how i wish i can slap her and tell her to grow up...o well..

Right.. thats a long rant.. imma go slp.. i really gotta do work..PROCRASTINATIONS A BITCH!