Today we had APEL class and... dun ask me why i am talking abt it but.. i just feel like posting stuff abt it :X

Anyway the question was something like.. which value do we value the most.. popularity, respect, progress or integrity..And yeah.. because i didnt get the chance to properly explain why i chose wad i did.. i decided to say it here..

I chose popularity.. and i know.. its kinda like self centered - ish and all that but hear me out yo.. I want to be popular amongst everyone as some1 who is willing to help..I'm not trying to show off or anything but to me.. i feel that i am some1 who cares for others more than myself..and i like that abt myself.. i love helping others and thats a fact.. i mean to a certain extend of course.. i dun mean it in a..gang fight help.. i mean like emotional and psychological help...

I wan people to know me this way and by being " popular" i dunno.. i guess people will come to me instead.. :X am i making sense..

Anyway he also asked us wad we would do to achieve popularity... if i could ans just now.. i would say, " i would be nice".. cus that pretty much it ... i dun wanna go around advertising myself.. sure i like to be remarked upon for any of my assistance..like if i help some1 .. i would love to have a thanks or.. good job.. i mean.. who wouldent.. face it.. as much as we sometimes say we dun mind not getting the attention for our kind acts, we would not mind having some..

So anyway.. my answer was i would not go against my morals.. then he asked.. would we backstab some1.. and this was where i think everyone misunderstood me.. i said.. " i could and i might" ..

Now before u all go WA LOUIS U SO BAD!.. i'm trying to say .. dun take me for granted or make use of me.. i dunno why but i felt agitated when i heard him say that... as u all know, when you are frens for so long.. u tend to forget how we should treat each other as human beings.. u know? respect each other? Think about it.. even for me.. i jokingly say vulgarities infront of my frens and AT my friends.. even if its a joke.. i am not respecting them in a sense.. so point is...I can treat you nice.. but.. if u take advantage of me.. i can also treat u horribly..

Wow.. i typed that out.. my teacher is really good at analysing me.. he said that i can be some1 who is extremely nice and yet extremely bad.. which .. well.. is true .. i mean look at the para abv :X..

O well.. thats all i guess.. i feel like i have more to type but nah.. i cant rmb wad i wanna say...