Two random things i wanna talk about..

First is my phone..Ok for those who know me.. i'm sure u all know i dislike my phone for a long time..u know..touch screen..BLEH.. really hate it..if my old phone didnt spoil and didnt cost a bomb to fix, i would totally keep it...why? well, for one.. a non-touch-screen phone allows for the following awesome stuff

ACTUAL BUTTONS

This is like the mega awesome lalalalalal nice nice factor abt it... it allows one to feel their way round the phone.. locate buttons in the middle of the night..find these darn buttons early in the morning when u just wake up and cant open ur eyes fully.. type message secretly and most importantly.. TYPE IT FAST..i know some ppl can type message on touch screen fast too but face it.. buttons > touch

And i realise that this really affects how i handle messages..i'll be upfront abt it.. but i'm a gamer and as well all know we gamers message at two specific times.. rest points ( aka when our char dies and we wait for respawns or when got loading time) or when the game ends.. and thing is.. i'd prefer to message back the moment i see it because being the idiot me.. i always end up forgetting that i received a message and end up seeing it only when i go to sleep which is like the only time i look at my phone when no vibration is felt..so yeah..its frustrating to both me and the other person who is waiting for my reply.. and of course i feel guilty.. but each time this happens I just feel like smashing my phone and pray for my holy old phone to come back to life and serve me again..

BLEH.. dun like..

Another random thing is.. well.. mask..

Initially i felt abit *ahem* thinking abt this topic .. but now.. i'm.. ok i guess .. (yucks i hate how my mood affects the way i post...like i feel annoyed at something and REALLY wanna post abt it hor.. the moment i happy.. i wont post )

Anyway.. its like.. what is a mask..and do i have one? I honestly dont know..is mask really something that is there .. like u can tell that some1 is sad but the way he TRIES to act is that of not sad? Is that false front the mask? Cus to me.. a mask is something that conceals the face entirely.. but when the person is sad.. we can still tell that he is sad cause.. well.. as much as he tries.. his face will let off that hint of sadness.. am i being retarded? i dunno just randomness.. anyway.. i tot the mask should conceal it entirely but lets be honest.. he somewhat wants to let ppl know he is sad.. so is that still a mask? Half-a-mask maybe..

Or is the mask something of how ppl act instead of how they really are.. like they are actually rough ppl but act innocent and kind on first encounter to get frens.. just a random example...but yet again.. is that really a mask.. maybe to them it is.. because they feel that they fully captured the role they wanted to play.. but to me it isnt.. for like i said.. i can catch these hints of fakeness.. so still..half-a-mask again? to me? i guess :X

So what exactly is a full mask to me? Hmm..i dun think i can say that any1 else has a full mask to me..as in.. i have no right to deem that for being the guy being shown the mask.. i can see it and often than not it is halved cus i can see thru it.. but rather.. its something 1 can say only to themselves.. i guess at least..they themselves feel that they have successfully played the role and all.. but of course to others.. they can see that its halved..

I honestly have no idea where i'm going with this.. i wanted to post this yesterday when i was lying in bed thinking abt something.. was meant to be kinda emotional i guess.. but now.. i'm like meh so i cant really express wad i mean properly i guess.

Argh i guess its not the best time to write this.. its just weird writing it out when my mood is not at its place.. i shall leave it for another time ..haizzz

All that internal conflict for nothing..

O WELL! NIGHTS