Went our with SV today for badminton and one lesson i really really gotta teach myself is to lose... yes to lose... gosh just like wad... 3 days ago? I fell down trying to return a tennis ball and now? I nose dived for a shuttlecock .. did i spell it right? :X

Well.. now i have two elbows with injuries crapo pants ..

ANYWAY as expected from the girls.. my pics were not of "professional" quality..which somehow was kinda expected.. I did see some off stuff here and there but knowing me i simply assumed that i was wrong and that it was made in such a way on purpose...

I'm not full out regretful of doing this... seeing that i know i will put the pictures to good use but.. the outcome was not worth the cost i dont know :X .. Very happy that SV suggested having a photoshoot, using the school studio and all.. I doubt its possible tho seeing that there are issues here and there but the fact that they suggested it was just .. awesome but now....ARGH TROUBLED .. told them i aint...but now i am RWARRR

Still I'm getting very frustrated.. this whole "take the course or you wont succeed" shit is pissing me off... Its $150.. i've spent like $619 as of now and heck to the no i wanna spend more...will i even earn back what i've paid? I dont know.. seeing the amount of people constantly joining.. its kinda hard to think about

Honestly, I dont care if he reads my blog... if he does then maybe i'll trust him cause he actually bothers to find out what my blog is.. but then again maybe he is just seeing whether he can write shit about me.. anyway my "good" friend who intro-ed me is pressuring me into taking up the course, saying that it will benefit me and that as my friend he wants me to succeed and to earn back what i've lost blah blah...

Ok first.. u aint my friend.. sorry to burst everyone's bubble.. I barely know u.. heck I didnt even talk to you the two years we were in the same class.. we are classmates and honestly.. the trust level isnt that high here unlike if my FRIEND tells me to do it..

Secondly you tell me that what you've learnt from the course is being put to use while u are talking to me and honestly.. I'm put off by that cause to me it sounds like what i will be learning is to talk bullshit.. I dont know how to explain it but...everyone sounded fake and bullshity to me when i was there..

Lastly, i hate how the way i m asked to sign up for this course sounds so threatening.. like if i dont take it i wont get a job cause i will fail the casting part of things cause i cant dress and cant speak..ok so maybe i aint as good as others who are more confident, but damn if u are using what u've learnt and u sound like that.. hell no am i learning.. i'm better off without..

I'm just mad and dissing but really.. the pictures are ..haiz.. what makes u think that the course will be any better.. feels very scammy.. the only reason i aint blasting heads off is cause i know i can use the pics somehow ...

Maybe i'd be a gay model hahaha credits to jen for that comment haha.. we'll see :D

my frens are rushing me so i'd cut this short but yeah... dont ever use the word "Friend" lightly around me...there is a difference between friend, people, classmates, and pawns ..