You know that feeling when you're pissed, and you body just feels so warm and you get all frustrated and irritated. I'm sure you know how that feels, that really "tingly" feeling in your whole body that just makes you want to hurl a chair at the next person that pisses you off. Well, I'm trying to get rid of that feeling now but clearly, it ain't working.

I think anyone who owns a blog knows how frustrating it is to type about certain things, only because we don't really know who is reading our blogs. And honestly, the 'want' of saying something but having to not say it or think of another way to say it is simply tiring and often than not frustrating. I remember hurting one of my friends by being direct here which was not pretty. It was all a misunderstanding ultimately so things turned out okay but... I don't want it to happen again.

I realize that the reason why I didn't need to post so much last time, was because I had friends to talk to in class to handle random stuffs. But now, I'm having MORE problems in class but everyone is a guy and guys............. 90% of them are insensitive asses that can't be caring directly. What i mean is that, they use a "different" form of "care" which is abit more indirect and harsh. I appreciate the dudes that do that for me and I can see them but.. sometimes, I just want a direct care moment you know?

I need someone to talk to in class but the one who I know is like...the best? Is now in a different class and its just so shiety. Its so odd. Studying in poly made me realize the difference in people. Smarts come in different forms and a smart person might not be smart in all areas. Likewise to the opposite of smart :X. 

Holding back and holding in. I know the time and place for things and right now, I'm VERY VERY impatient for the time to come. Soon. Poly life is ending soon...