Game Nerd moment so please dun mind me :P

Dun mean to be a mega bitch about things but...Even though you dun mean it the way you do.. my interpretation of your sentences, given the specific time and scenario, will be way off from what you actually meant..

"Passing me your skill"

Now...Saying this simply makes me feel like I never had any of my own skill to begin with.. as if I don't have a noticeable presence in a game...as if I'm there just to be there.. I know you don't mean it that way and that you are just saying it as a joke or form of encouragement but hey.. my brain is a mega bitch.

"Slowly learn lo"

Whenever I criticize myself or make a mistake and somehow tells me ... Slowly learn lo... it ticks me off..for one, if I am able to criticize myself to begin with.. it means I know my mistake and I have already "learnt" that particular way or method when playing the game just that I made an error which resulted in me NOT carrying it out... Telling me to learn smth I have already learnt makes me feel like you think I am always making this same mistake and that I always will.

"Ok lo/what/la/etc"

Number one most hated line of all time.. just like in singing when someone says .. Your singing is OK LA..so what? Is that a "I should continue singing cus it's pleasing to the ear?" or "stfu" or "Its not too bad...but i wont really want to hear it often.." or "its not too bad but i dun mind listening to it" etc... like.. yo.. I'm a tough grader and sometimes when something cool happens that makes me go HOLY CRAP OMG HAHAHA YES ... and I hear you say..it was OK LA...its like bitch please I'm not on your standard...sure i aint got the same amount of experience in the game but... i dunno I find it naturally degrading and just.. like makes me unmotivated to catch up since i will always be seen as someone of a lower level.

Maybe i'm being a huge bitch about it cus I keep commiting the same mistakes.. maybe i'm really not that good as I think I am.. who knows eh? I KNOW i'm good at LoL but after some shitty internet/games/watever... i'm beginning to question my capabilities as a gamer...

Used to think that my attributes were that of .. fast learner... quick reaction.. unexpecting.. innovative.. now is like.. plop.. nth.. Sure I thought of the whole moving the ghost of the dude and stunning when it returns but thats it? I'm  sure others have thought about it too and even created something more abt it.. but sigh.. i dunno.. is really skill as a gamer this bad the whole time? Or rather am I just faced with the feeling of inferiority due to the lack of compliments/ excessive amount of mistakes/lack of confidence..

BLeh.. i really do lack confidence..requiring the comments of people to believe what is what...and even then when i get compliments I hardly believe them.. saying that they are said simply cus they are my friends...oh well...

Now i know why I/people fish for compliments... we need them to feel better...